Grown up on the Inside...

isip.thesis

2007-07-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

1month to go...before our thesis excution....AUg 20-21 to be exact....Hay...sbrang isip ng isip about the thesis.ojt.Shakespeare.
Wala na social life friday nalng...a day for God but I'm afraid na maaffect pati yun... but still thanks for my churchmates and gerry ahhahah may 1 day akong sbrang inaabangan

But my life right now is full of contentment...Living my life without worries except for my studies....Wala ako inaatupad kung di ung mga bagay for myself....sarap!

O well, kakatpos ko lng mag-aus ng issues about our poster....hehehhe time for practicing for my incoming play on 24-26!

pls watch:

Trahedya ni Shakespeare

July 24-26 1pm and 7pm ordev accredited
P150

Prinsipe ng buwan (my thesis)

Aug 20-21 P120

heheheh anu kaya mangyayare sa birthday ko masaya kaya?

isip.bata production

2007-07-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

Time really flies....thesis is fast approaching sbrang nakakatakot lot of stress and pressure although we're four in the group d nababawasan ang ginagawa...But i thank God coz he really shower us so much talaga right now we have cast na sobrang cool coz d2 nagbunga ung pgging friendly namen hahahha many friends na meet namin since first year kmi they really ready to help us...hay...

Oct 13...graduation day ko next week i'll have pictorial na for our year book huuuuuh! The best! iba na ang feeling ko...pero at the same time kinakabahan sa mga future plans ko...but bahala na...iwan ko na ung part na un kay God

so wait nalang sa thesis namin ni jed, joey and celine...thank God for having you guys! AJA! isip bata!

1 month half ang mgging samahan ntn ehheheh a door for a really great friendship...

politics of life thank you d parin kau nagbabago samin...forever actors ko kau no 1 sa heart ko hahah

aug 20-21 at csb theather entitled: "Prinsipe ng buwan"

july 27: Shakepeare me as lady macbeth

its time to go!
babaeng ala pahinga logging off!

text message...musta naman yan!

2007-06-25T14:38:00.000+08:00

It's just that i've been thinking about you and me...i find it really hard to accept that I'm ur bestfriend... i kept thinking why and i cant find a good reason... maybe bcoz i dont deserve to be in that position i just want to be your kabarkada not your bestfriend xoz i treat you all as equals no more no less so u dont have to call me the best just your kabarkadacoz i know im not and u know it sorry 4 saying this just now ur an important person to meand i dont want to be unfair to you there can only be one bestfriend and tht's not me and its not u either...we knew from the beginning that we are different we are noteven that close in highschool so why are we bstfriend...u shuld also ask that to yourself just think bout it ilove you and i hope you understand wat im trying to say il always be a true friend to you...

a day after....
forget about what i said last nyt im just not feeling well stressed ako sbra sorry sorry your my one and only bestfrend sorry talaga maxado akong madrama kagabi....

this is a text message from one of my closest friend...

how should i react?
i admit it....this message hurts me

i again questioning myself "Anu na naman ba ang mali"...why????

But Still i love you....but please stop hurting me....please this goes with everybody....

right now im happy...very happy....Maybe im also tired na pansinin ang mga ginagawa nio sakin....go on with your life and be happy....lumapit nalang kau skin kung may ggwin or sasabhin kaung mabuti...if your really my friend please take good care of my heart..I'm still in the process of healing it...wag nio na sanang dagdagan pa....dont get me wrong...d naman ako galit pero hindi sapat ang stress ka parang sabhin mo ang mga ganun na bagay if masama ang loob mo sakin handa naman akong makinig sau....I maybe not a perfect friend but God knows how important you are to me...but I didnt realize na mababaw pala ang tingin mo sa samahan natn...

dont worry Your wish will be done....ur not my bestfriend anymore....just a kabarkada....

gonna watch movie later miss miss gerry...hahahha

Message from Jeding@cadraft class

2007-06-14T15:52:00.000+08:00

Shirley,

Hello...I am the future general of the philippines and if i become one i will make you my left hand general no...no..no i will make you the rightr becoz im left handed....and together we will production design the philippine militar family...we will....make costume, military events...sosyal location for our war....

hahahha

Nung nagbreak c shirley at joseph akala ko d kmi magbreak ni biboi....pero nagbreak din kmi hahah friendship kung friendship talaga soon enough sana c roxanne din....hahahah...nung pagnagbreak away kung away...

palagi kming magksama ni shirley...madami siyang kakrungkrungan para kming kindergarden...
parang kmi ang nagcocomplete ng school days d enough ang school pag d kmi magksama...un lng...Take the carebear care ok teddy bear...

-->hapy kmi coz....magaling kmi magcadraft...hahahahahha

Last term ko na!

2007-05-31T11:31:00.000+08:00

heheh musta naman super namiss ko mag blog...well, eto ako nasa i nook ninanamnam ang nalalabi kong 3 buwan sa csb... grabe sobrang dami ng nagbgo....

well bfore dat...kwento ko muna ang aking munting bakasyon...nagkaroon ako ng sapat na oras para makapagisip isip at masasabing kong tapos na ang aking mga problema at sa kasalukuyan ako ay lubos na masaya...madami paring problema na dumadating pero kayang kaya! Noong Bakasyon ako ay pumunta sa aking munting probinsya ng durian ang davao...d gaano masaya ang pagpunta ko dun dhil...may pasok sa trabaho ang aking mga kamag-anak... pero masaya parin naman at di ko parin naman makakalimutan ang ilan samga nngyre sa akin doon...

pagbalik ko galing davao e nagsimula na ang frosh orientation...masaya dhil madami akong nakilalang kaibigan sabay ksama ko ang aking politics of life family at ang aking pinsan na si leslie...ngunit may halong lungkot din dhil eto na ang huli kong taon na mag orient kaya naman ako ay binansagang "reyna ng Fop" dhil sa tagal ko nang pagsislbi sa nasabing programa nung unang araw ay nagorient ako ng mga transferees pangalawangaraw ay ang bagongkurso ng kolehiyo na photography at animation at sa huling araw ay sa export management na madaming foreigner...madami akong naging kaibigan at masipag na ako mag text hahah himala?!

Masya din ako dahil may mga bago ako kaibigan na nagbibigay sa akin ng ngiti...tulad ng kaibigan ng aking kapatid na si "Gerry Hung"...nakaktuwa dhil ako ay may kakulitan,kalakwatsa at kaaway hahah...Pangalawa ay si "mr. Paul" isang koreano na aking naorient ako ay labis na natutuwa saknya dahil magkasundo kmi....kaya naman lalong lumulungkot ang huli kong term dhil madamiakon kaibigan na maiiwan...

ngayon pang-apat na araw na ng pagsisimula ng klase wala akong pasok tuwing lunes at biyernes kaya tuloy parin ang buhay student center...bukas na din ang bagong building ng Sda masasabi kong maganda sobra ang aming bgong eskwelahan kung ito ay tuluyan ng matatapos...nakaklungkot dhil d ko na ito maabutan....pero maligaya ako na kahit papaano ay nakapamalagi ako dito kht 3 buwan lamang...syempre nakakapanibago kaya naman blik ako ng blik sa old building tulad ngayon....masya din ako dhil baka d na drafig ang perspective drawing ko ito ay magiging cad draft na kung san kami ay gagamit na ng autocad sana naman ay hinde ako mahirapan...

napakasarap ng aking buhay ngaun tahimik at mapayapa....ipinagdadasal ko na sana ito ay tuloy tuloy na....di ko na maalala kung anu pa ang king ilalagay pero ayos na to kc ito lang naman ang mga importanteng nangyare...

kaya ang aking blog ay isinulat ko sa tagalog dahil ako ay gumagwa ng aking takda sa retorika hahahah anung koneksyon?ako ay natatawa na sa aking sarili bwahahahahahhaha

what's wrong?

2007-05-12T17:04:00.000+08:00

everything in my life ryt now is wrong...I dont know why i cant find my way out...where is my energy?happiness and dreams...all i have is pain that eats me...where can i find myself again...
Living in this cruel world...makes me want to die...so tired of thinking, pretending and breathing...

alone in my journey with an invisible in my heart...cant bear the pain and near to quit...

waiting and waiting....ending

2007-05-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

Vacation na....ok naman ang grades ko...sumabit pa sa pgiging dl hahaha....Well musta thesis? ok naman im happy coz atleast worth it ung pagod ko....although its hard coz im not comfortable with my panels and vice versa...hahha!Long story hay...

Hmm Musta ojt? well sobrang ok....we (w/ Atch lou and Sana) organized a surprise candle light dinner for mama and papa's 28th anniv we held it in the barbara's orchidarium sbrang ganda d ko expected un and un narin ung pinasa ko sa ojt ko....heheh i really dream to become a events specialist....i love surprises and etc....hay i hope someday i can make it....

but ooops sa bfore ng ojt presentation ko something bad happened huhu nahulog ako sa hagdn and nabasag ang laptop ko...hmmm imagine d scenario ahhhhh....sbrang hirap d bale ng madapa keso mahulog sa hagdan....tangengot ako hahha....but thank God at napaayos ko din ang aking laptop God is really good eventhough d me nakasama sa kids camp....coz bedrest ako for 1 week...sayang talaga...

after dat....super stress free na ako...Lakwatsa with some of my long lost friends like sai and jason....tin, hao and les....cool..its so hot kaya nakakatamd din lumabas...

I'm finishing some of my papers sa imigration coz ala pa akong i card punishment d ako nakasama sa china...nakakainis! yesterday i went to the imigration den nung last fri sa nso....grabe ang haba haba ng pila....thank God at kht papano ok na....

We are planning to make a short film for student center excited na ako...ill be the director....tagal ko na din d gawa film heheh To God be the glory!....after dat im also excited sa student center coz ill be the oic for the elementary i hope that i can be a blessing to them....so joyful...heheh

what else? Ill be going to davao excited na din ako....Gihi gugma tika ko sila lahat dun heheh....may bagong dog si aya louie hahah may bago na anamn akong tataguan heheh....

and especially excited na din me dis term last term na huhu yehey! although may perdraw ako and thesis execution....cant wait na makagrad na! may shakespeare ulit ang df and i'll be playing Lady macbeth dream role noh!

saya saya...

Well...life is not perfect but life is good!!!

Maybe later get togeder with my brkada.....!excited!

TRUST

2007-04-11T02:09:00.000+08:00

Hello...THESIS is fast approaching...and it's really killing me...I got a week break but I'm full of stress because of my upcoming defense...I spent my 2 whole days in preparing this thing but guess what up to now im still changing my design template...
I need to make a sample design for my puppets.....ahhh honestly it is just a puppet but I'll tell you that being a designer isn't easy...halo halo yan u should know the whole history of ur template...Dapat my accurate reason sa design mo...may Budgeting....may aesthetic.....sabay may Ojt Pa ko....Sabay may kid's camp pa...hmmm LORD m shouting na talaga for help...I have only 2 days left para ayusin ung thesis ko..........................................

LAst week...Camp namen...Thank God that may pahinga naman ako...alis muna sa real world...so Blessed kc sumama ache ko and my whole tiong Family...met new friends...bonding with my davao relatives...cool sobra...I got a chance again to have a testimony...sobra sarap ng Feelings..........hmmmp!
MASAYA AKO...I feel relieved sa lahat ng pain coz again im back in my God's arm.......

hmmm next tym nalang ulit...thesis mode again

Moments

2007-03-31T17:07:00.000+08:00

take 1... my only 1...

conquering my fear #1...

Today is the last day of March...Time really flies...I got lot of activities this month...

I went to Vigan with my Parthdes class

I went to many exhibits

Lots of rehearsal for Shakespeare

Went to a shooting for a music video

Field Trip for ojt...

Thesis!stress but konti nalang...

I'll be graduating na lapit na... It's cool coz next term sa sda building na me...new environment

ang daming memories this month it's been a wonderful experience to enjoy taking care of myself....Trying everything na d ko pa nagagawa it's cool...

Atlast nakasama ko c cabz this month meron n xa Gf hehhehe happeee for my best friend...

Nthing change he still the best!

At last after a very long time nakasama kung din ang barkada ko...it's a goodbye gimmick for Justine coz sa hk na xa for 2 years...Im gonna miss him sooo much...

den it's also Jo despedida coz pnta din xa hk today....

Thank God coz atleast I got lots of guts to accept everything...maybe I can say na I dont love him anymore...I'm free and I will be free....I'm not happy but Certainly I will be....

Next week camp na...I'm looking forward to my peaceful moments...

I will gain there everything that I lost and when I'm back everything will be bright for me i promise...no hatred...no past...no sadness...no frowns but undying smile....I promise! a new me a new me....the best "me"...

Guys pls pray for my thesis it is so hard....i need your prayers

happy birthday papa!kantata today support our church!

2007-03-06T17:14:00.000+08:00

" Even if you do things the right way...some would still be unsatisfied...some will not appreciate the things that you say and what you do and there would always be pipol who would let you down too but for as long as u speak honestly from the heart you will be fine this is not a perfect world this is not a perfect life. Life is almost unfair but life loves the person who dares to live with it..."

I just want to congratulate the politics of life the musical....pipz heheheh it's so nice to have you ol guys.....

we won:

2nd best play

best production manager

box office hit

best costume designer

best actor

best music

guys...Job well done thank you for everything.....

HAy...it's been a while since my last post....hay....uP And down talaga ang life....

I'm facing a lot of difficulties but thank God that He blessed me with alot of beautiful things...

I will not post it here nalang what happened coz it is very Dangerous hahaha monster might eat me hahahh....

I got lots of lakwatsa with my politics of life pipol and I'm so happy to be their ate at the same time close friend....Well feeling bata pa rin ko noh sweet 19..hahah

last sunday was my aya ton's wedding...so happy for him as we watched their presentation of their love story....he made me believed that love really exist because since my break up with jo....the truth is i dont believe in love anymore....but aya ton's love story really lift up my hope and dream that someday my super prince charming will come to love me the way i want him to....hay hopeless romantic mode again hahaha

i got lot of school work to think pa keso love love n yan hhahha....a very quiet and fulfilling day ala lang hahhahahhaha

D' Cover

2007-02-13T01:41:00.000+08:00

I'm so depress...

This month is very productive for me...I think i have found my comfort zone...having new friends...adventure...having a new crush....achieving something

but why I am still lonely....

Maybe because I cant be true to myself....I am lonely but I'm still smiling....I'm still doing things that aren't Appropriate...hay

Kanina lang me medyo natauhan...I realizd that d na tama ang inaasal ko...I'm so confused kung bkit ako ganito...

I know that I'm not alone but I'm lonely...ala naman masama dun it is a very natural feeling....medyo napapagod na din cguro ko....Im covering everything that i feel through sa work ko...I'm trying to give everything my time and super duper effort to this production not because i love it but because this is my comfort zone...this is where I can be someone else....I can be the bossy and naughty shirley I can do everything that i want but then kpag umuwe na ako....I still feel the pain...

I'm a very good actress...I'm a pretender that's why i hate myself....

I'm just so tired...I got lots of work and responsibilities but I lost my heart....

La lng...i just cant contain it...I dont want to risk anything

i dont want to feel the pain...

Something about love...

2007-02-01T14:17:00.000+08:00

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."

12 Better Explainations of LOVE....
1) Don't turn your back to love when it's already in front of you, Don't drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you'll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you.
2) In Love, think things first over if you're sure about how you feel, Don't fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, 'coz it will hurt real bad if things don't go the way you want them to be.
3) It's an irony to know that it takes hours for someone to have guts to say "hi" to the one he likes, days to admire, weeks to miss the person, months to love, but just a blink of an eye to say goodbye...
4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not wrong to love someone who belongs to someone else, but it is much better to love someone who could also love you in return.
5) Love isn't something we hold, it is something we set free, It's not something we just do, but it's something we don't imagine to be. Lastly, it's not something we choose, it chooses us...
6) The scariest thing about falling in love is getting hurt. The scariest thing about getting hurt is not being able to love again. The scariest thing about not loving again is being alone forever.
7) When you follow your heart, worry not where it will lead you, for your heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or reach a dead end, use your head to lead you back home.
8) When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses.
9) It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than lose your loved one to your useless pride.
10) Love is .........not " it's your fault ", but " i'm sorry ",not " where are you ? ", but " i'm here ",not " how could you ? ", but " i understand,not " i wish you were here ", but " i'm thankful you are ".
11) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves, and not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.
12) If a relationship is truly meant for you, your love will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.

something to ponder upon...

2007-02-01T13:40:00.000+08:00

For all you people who say "I love you" when you have no clue what love is exactly!!! Something to ponder upon.....

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??-It isn't love, it's LIKE.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??-It isn't love, it's LUST.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off??-It isn't love, it's LUCK.
Do you want them because you know they're there??-It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants??-It isn't love, it'S LOYALTY.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??-It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don't want to hurt them??-It isn't love, it's PITY.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??-It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??-It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of??-It isn't love, it's a LIE.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??-It isn't love, it's CHARITY.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad??-Then it's LOVE.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong??-Then it's LOVE.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts??-Then it's LOVE.
Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there??-Then it's LOVE.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are??-Then it's LOVE.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret??-Then it's LOVE.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??-Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love? Why is it all we search for in life? This pain, this agony? Why is it all we long for? This torture, this powerful death of self? Why?The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others as well.

The incoming crossroad festival

2007-01-25T13:13:00.000+08:00

Hay...i thought this will be an easy term...more lakwatsa....more time for myself....but...I was given a tough job...mag didirect kmi ni jed ng play....well this is our first time stressful coz nangangapa pa...but excited ako...

IN three years art and Productions becomes my life....sometimes i feel na nakaksawa na...but then i still find myself na sali parin ng sali...

But i thank God for giving me strenght, determination and wisdom...

Jed and I are always together and i hope that in this production mas tumibay pa ung samahan natin...it's cool coz nakikipag work kmi sa mga bagong kakilala we gain new friends...it's a nice feeling to be given this kind of job....

at first im just applying to be a set desgnr tpos bglang ganito nakakashock pero masya....

hmm we started our first rehearsal yesterday mdyo windang pa kmi pero ok naman...

excited na din me sa pictorial sa sat....heheheh...today up to tom mdyo blik muna me sa old routine ko

atleast makakbalik me ng student center i miss my students na....

Ill be passing my design kay hannah for kantata on fri...i have ideas na pero...baka mahirapan akong iconstruct ahhh hirap mging prod designer kapag babae ka....huhu...

well guys hope you can watch our play "THE POLITICS OF LIFE" the musical...

on feb. 22, 2007 1 and 6pm at the csb theater....

pls support us thank you! God bless!

Evaluation

2007-01-23T00:57:00.000+08:00

la lng I just want to ask myself if I'm still living in my past?....hehhehe Napansin ko kcng panay work nalang binabnggit ko sa blog ko....I just want to share some of my thoughts

kanina I've talked to a friend na sobrang sabog coz broken hearted xa... My heart really melt when i heard his story...Same scenario sa nangyre sakin....I heard him say those phrases na sinabi ko noon....like "we've been best of friends for almost six years" etc.... dun ko lng ulit naisip ung nngyre sakin....i really felt the pain na nararamdaman nia...it really makes me sad...well ang nasabi ko nalang was "Ganyan talaga ang buhay" eventhough in my heart i know that it is not easy but everything will be easy kung gusto mo padaliin ang certain na bagay...

I tried to evaluate myself after dat and ni recall ko lahat ng mga advises ng mga friends ko and etc....One thing na narealized ko na totoo...it is not true that time would heal the wound....the wound will be healed kung kelan mo gusto hilumin un....

if only i can see my future....di na cguro ako nasaktan nung iniwan nia ako...

sayang ung mga tears heheh....

noong reklamo ako ng reklamo kung bkt nngyre un....pero ryt now i thank God na nngyre un coz my life is so wonderful ryt now...

mas naging matured and mas naging responsible na ako....i think God just prepared me kaya nia ako pinadaan sa trials na un...

well, i hope na mainspired ka kht papano....mdyo sabog lng thoughts ko hehhe

We need to be strong....six or eight years doesnt matter....memories nalang ung...part of ur past....mas madaming pang eight and six years na dadating....try to build it na wala xa....

i can say that im ready to love again I'm just waiting for my prince.....a true prince!

hi.......

2007-01-15T13:12:00.000+08:00

Guys....new sun no ko....09227559526

eniweiz im still using my smart no.

un lng

atch jackie congrts RN ka na!

hheehheheh!

still waiting for my next class....

thinking kung anu ggwin ko sa crossroad...
suggestion naman oh....anu mas ok mag set designer, costume designer or actress?

gotta go!

Enough to make me happy...

2007-01-14T00:33:00.000+08:00

FROM MY STUDENT CENTER STUDENTS
-1/12/06....

new year...new shirley...

2007-01-13T22:56:00.001+08:00

wow! i miss my blog so much and ang dami naring namiss na happenings ng blog ko...actually I've been blogging for almost a week pero may sira ung server huhu...eniweiz just want to greet everybody a super duper belated Meri xmas and happy new year...

o well My chrstmas hehheh very simple....very worthy....this is the only year na i've spent my christmas fully with my family...ahhhh hehheh with likilam din pla hahah....well nung 24 guess wat hahah magksama kmi ni James...sinamahan nia ako sa rp to buy gifts ngcram kc me eh....hahah...well it's so cool to spent time with him again...I miss his sweetness...welll nothing changed naman as in super sweet pa din xa....I've bought a new phone hahaha gift ko sa sarili ko....hahha ist tym ko mag isip ng gift for myself maybe eto kc ung christmas na nagtipid ako...

Nung dec 23...nag out reach kami for the street children with my church mates hahahah super worth it ang christmas ku....wat else studies? d ako nging DL but im very satisfied with what we accomplished within the term we produced 2 films....and super kakaiba ung experience...

I pray that makapasok xa sa cinemalaya....

Nung dec 26-29 I went to davao with papa, les, aya chard, sako and uncle robert....cool ist tym kong sumama sa knila watta experience masya coz....atlast napapalapit na ako sa relatives ko sa father side hahah....well masya ung davao trip...ang sarap dun....ang srap makasama ung mga relatives ko dun haha miss ko na nga cla eh....hahah dami ko din natutunan na bisaya words...astig!

hmmmp....

Start na ng 3rd term...cant believe na magthesis na ako and ojt....atlast pay off narin mga efforts ko...ahhaha....

I can say that im so happy right now....Last monday i had my testimony sobrang srp ng feeling na may mga taong nainspired sa life ko...as i recalled wht i said....i've realized that God really moves in mysterious ways....last 3 months ago panay pain ang nararamdaman ko but now im contented and strong...a girl that once lost..is now full of hope...

I dont need anybody to be happy...i just need God serving him makes me complete....

hahahah i got my starbucks planner last wed....hahha....mdyo naadik ako dun ive done some desperate move to get it hahahha....and I finished it within 6 days hahahah biruin mo everyday sa starbucks hahaha....but worth it naman

i can say na adik ako hahahah adik sa starbucks and some koreanovela....Princess Hours....and others....hahah Na fallinlove tlga ako sa stories hahahha....

wat else....

ala akong class every thurs and fri...but it's good coz nakkaconcentrate ako sa student center...

hmmm wat else atch is back last month pa...soooo happy coz right now were so close....ang dmi naming bonding times and maybe that is one of the biggest reason y im happy...lagi kc kming ngaaway noon but now kakampi ko na xa sa lahat ng bagay...

at the same time lagi kmi mgksama ni leslie....blood is really thicker thn water!

new year..........new shirley........better me.....

favorite line from my testimony:

"I'm no longer a princess...but I'm a slave of a wonderful and loving king"

-shirley 1/8/07

i forgot the most creepy experience

2006-12-05T11:04:00.000+08:00

in the name of acting and art...humga ako sa kabaong!!!

gagawin ko ang lahat sa ngalan ng......

2006-12-05T10:40:00.000+08:00

hahah...im bck...after 3 days and 2 nights sa isang haunted house eto na ako...still alive and kicking thank God haha!...hay watta life...nakaktuwa coz lahat tlga magagwa m kapag pumsok ka sa gnitong mundo...u can be an actress, designer in all aspects, make up artist, cameraman....taga concept kung baga all around tlga....

well ngaun na nagagawa ko na ung mga eto i can say na i dont have any regrets na rin na itinuloy ko ung course na to...eventhough d xa popular like other courses i can say nag eenjoy tlga ako...

well ala pa sakin ung mga pics pero as soon as i get it lgay ko agad d2

Thurs: 11/30/06: May bgyo walang class hahah...after ng ilng arw kong dilemma sa hika e....bck to work macquette, costumes and etc...dinalw me ni lek and hao ahhh ang sweet....
but unfortunately d me pinayagan ni mama mag punta ng cvite bcoz baka mabint ako and bglang dumting ung bgyo....so we decided na sususnod nlng kmi early in the morning ng fri with jed and biboy...

fri: 12/1/06: nag bus lang kmi papuntang silang ang fresh ng air ahhaha laugh trip coz mashado akong special treatment sa mga tao coz nakamask ako maybe they tink na malala sakit ko oh well ganun na nga...

pag dating sa silang....naglinis kmi hooh ang freaky ng haus of course nung una d ako natatakot...tapang tapangan ang lola mo....

around mga 6pm nag pnta kmi ng tagaytay sa haus nila bianx para mag dinner and maligo

jed biboy and I decided to stroll sa labas sarap ng hangin hanggng may aso na ogag ang name na humabol samin...see gaanong reaction nlng meron ako during that time....hhahha buti andyan si jed nad biboy although nanigas di cla...

after dat kumain kmi sa dencio's hahah....naalala ko ung pinuntahan nmin ng hs barkda....nakakatwa lng heheh....atleast nakarating me ng tagaytay w/o them namn...

den blik na sa silang haha....back to work we shoot the care taker scenes muna hay ang daming lagim na nngyare and i swear na d na ko bablik dun

Sat: 12/2/06: hahah..pinak stressful na day but ayos lng coz everybody was working....
the most unforgettable day

Sun: 12/3./06: shoot pa some morning scenes den back to manila....hehheeh

den may bago ulit film enttled "BLOODY MARY" thank God ta blessing tlaga coz may ancestral haus pala si tita edith so kagabi pinuntahan namin although sa cavite parin hahha.,...

this week shoot kmi ulit...hopefully matapos lahat ng maaus...

hay ala na akong naiisip kung d work work ala na tym for everything i promise to myself i will never allow na mging sad ang christmas ko...

2 weeks nalang tapos na pghihirap...

this sat it's les debut hayy hagard ang itsura ko huhu...hahahha

today hahah alang mio kita kits nalang dw kmi sa finals....

pnta me rp now den mit kmi ni tom so that magawa ko na ung bday video ni les...after dat shoot sa haus ni lek and sa greenblt......

FAMOUS LINES FROM JED:

Ang bitter m! are u a chocolate!

Don't curse me r u a witch!

How dare you judge me are you a judge if i am a book then cover me...

wag mo akong guluhin madami pa akong gingawa

umalis ka dian magtutupi ako!

Kung d ka out wala nang out

May bukol na ako!...

meng ng meng e kakatpos nga lng

hahahhahhhhahah lakas trip well may mga hidden meaning yan hahah post ko lng para lgi kong maalala...skit sa tiyan wahahahahah

THANKS

2006-11-30T13:48:00.000+08:00

I just want to say thank you sa mga taong nag-alala sakin nung naospital ako...i appreciate ur care...Don't worry I'm starting to be ok..

Hehheeheh....bka nga mamaya back to work na ako....

well....bagyo bagyo na naman sana ala brown out...

Miss ko na benilde ilang arw din me absent i miss my loka loka frends hahha...

God bless!

hahha exciting mag shoot kmi ng horror film namin sa parang haunted house ng lola ni tinay hahah 3 days and 3 nights kmi dun coool!hehhehehehhe

FROM LIKILAM...touching msg

2006-11-30T13:32:00.000+08:00

there are times that we need to be hurt to be able to learn...

but what if these hurts causes so much pain that it made you stop loving & believing

maybe, it's just an obstacle you need to overcome

or maybe it is something that is there for you to realize not to fight?

you met someone and fell inlove

you realized how happy you are

when he's there besides you

you just want to spent the whole day with him

nothing enters your mind when you talk

he's your prince, your night...time passed slowly

and you... the smile are still there

but suddenly....you felt sad...he is there but you cannot feel his presencewhat will you do???

he keeps on telling you that he will never leave you

but why is it that you suddenly felt that you are all alone by yourself?

where is he?somewhere out there

maybe with someone

or maybe just waiting for you to realize all the acts you just committed

the acts that made him walked a little away from you

but you will never really know...especially because he never wanna talk about it

and how will you now?maybe, you just need to understand...not everything will turn out..and all you have to do is choose

choose between

letting go or holding on..if you will let go...be strong

never cry never pity yourself go on with your life

there are still alot of things that you can explore

learn moreappreciate everything

and enjoy for sure, someone will come your way

and will love you the way

you want to be loved..but if you will hold on

just hold on everything will go smooth eventually you just need to bear all the hurts and take all the risks....even if it will cause so much pain

at least you give all you can in the name of love

thats how love goes...to let go, and wait for someone new while enjoying life

orto hold on, understand, and be strong

face all the hurtings and the risks...and later on

if you loss everything...at least you did not loss the battle easily

you fight it is wat matter most..whether you fight or not... in the name of love..

2006-11-18T14:58:00.000+08:00

TONIGHT I CAN WRITE THE SADDEST LINES

I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."
The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.
To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.
What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.
That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.
My soul is lost without her.
As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.
The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.
I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.
Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she once
belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and Forgetting is so long.
Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.
Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.
-- Pablo Neruda

I read this poem during my worlite class last monday...a very sad poem that really touches my heart and as i observed the whole class...I just smiled and realized that I'm not the only one who can relate to this poem....

How powerful love is it can create the happiest part of your life and at the same time destroy it... It can change a person in a instant...

I hope that God will allow us to invent a anti-love drug....hahah...After we read this poem our professor asked us to explain our favorite verse in the poem...

"Love is so short and Forgetting is so long"

"Although this may be the last pain she causes me,and this may be the last poem I write for her."

these were my answers...

ala lng i dont know but this two verse remind me of him...

I think my heart had given up...Subconcious ata un hahaha....i know that my mind doesn't want me to give up ang dami kc memories na nakastore dun...pero napagod din ung heart ko and I thank God that he allowed me to tire my heart... that i will be the one to end my sufferings...he let me to find my own comfort zone...he allowed me to believe in myself na wala akong d kakayanin bsta andyan xa...he showed me that I'm shirley b4 dumating xa and ngaun wala na xa...I'm still shirley....I'm happy coz kaya ko naman pla mawala cla eh...

hush! ang dming ek ek...hahah...well...wat an inspiring life hahahha joke!

Ei guys i posted this kc super ok tlga xa...kakatuwa

Stay happy and Stay inlove!

2006-11-06T15:52:00.000+08:00

THE ART OF LETTING GO

Put away the pictures.

Put away the memories.

I put over and over

Through my tears

I've held them till I'm blind

They kept my hope alive

As if somehow that I'd keep you here

Once you believed in a love forever more?

How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all

Unchain my heart that's holding on

How do I start to live my life alone?

Guess I'm just learning, Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over

Say the word goodbye.

But each time it catches in my throat

Your still here in me

And I can't set you free

So I hold on to what I wanted most

Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more

Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all

Unchain my heart that's holding on

How do I start to live my life alone?

Guess I'm just learning, Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade

What can I do?

But try to make it through the pain of one more day Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?

I guess I'm learning, only learning, Learning the art of letting go.

ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

My Long Lost Friend...

2006-11-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

LIKILAM. I never tot that mggng frend kmi nitong nilalang na to...Of course he's one of the "bad guy Reputation" during our high school days....kakatuwa coz I've realized that iba tlga ang nggwa ng tym...Tym= change....

He's a very nice person naks burado naba ang bad guy impression....hehhe pero i swear he's a very cool guy....

Cge na nga i know ppbasa ko saknya toh....kaya itoh na hahah...

Maliban sa pgiging good looking guy niya....he has a very good hart for a friend like me...that's why i really appreciate his advices and everything....

well see i lost my so- called "Friends" but God gave me kapalit o db so nice....

well un lng....Just want to repay all the kindness na inoffer ng mga ugok na to hahahha.....

God bless gotta go....

pls. pray for my niece arianne ooperate xa tom....

thnx...

tribute ko sa mga Sosyal na PG

2006-11-02T22:24:00.000+08:00

I owe All the kalokohan, katakawan, kagaguhan and Especially KASiYAHAN during my college life to these two nilalang...
I never tot that may mgiging super close ako sa mga frends ko sa college coz i was so attached to my hs brkda...but as time goes by esp now na ang dami nng work na pang professional ows.......i really need some1 na andyan plgi....at d nangiiwan sa ere...
I admit that naging attched lang me sknila when I was going through the hardest part of my life...
Sometimes they dont listen to my drama mode pero they really make sure na mageenjoy me sa mga gingwa ko....appreciate ko lht un....
"Being TRue" yan ang meron sa aming 3...we accpt each other's flaws...proven yan noh!hahah Db?
Wel...I'm very glad that...Kht papano I have them...it's hard to have a friend in collge....but i was so blessed pasawy nga cla pero mahal ko....

Tribute ko yan sa inyo....libre nio ko sisig tom ah!Love yah

miss na me ng Blog kuh!

2006-10-24T00:14:00.001+08:00

Miss ko na mag blog well honestly natatamd kc me mag blog dis past few weeks....Sbrang daming work pero enjoy naman nakakafocus ako....kaya ok naman mga outcome

Ung MTV cute naman....sulit naman effort
hahhah i forgot na ung ibng mga ginwa ko....

but ang cool knina....Nag ilaw me sa duyan ng Kagitingan ang cool first time ko kakatkot pero astig...GRabe lakas parin ng powers ko 4am na me natulog kahapon bcoz of my midterm kay mio...6 days straight gawa me ng scale model, techdra, storyboard and etc. kakabaliw...pero atleast tapos na....I just want to relax....MAglakwatsa me hhehhee...

My life right now is very simple....I smile for a very simple reason that i have a good family, I have makukulit na Pmangkin, a nagger mom, a sweet dad, missing sister, cool cousin, Lovable students and very faithful God....sobrang simple I met new friends, I'm in a new environment....
I can't say that I'm happy right now but I can say that I'm learning to live this way....

I can't say that I don't feel the pain anymore...I still feel it...Pero I realized that Life is all about overcoming everything that u dont like...

Pero....I can say na I'm a Fighter....I will never Give up.....

Never ever rely your happiness to your friends no matter how important they are to you nobody will love and care for you the way U love urself....

SMILE And be ok!

2006-09-23T17:17:00.000+08:00

Your Brain is 67% Female, 33% Male

Your brain leans femaleYou think with your heart, not your headSweet and considerate, you are a giverBut you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

You Are Pretty Logical

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logicWhile you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn goodKeep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

People Envy Your Ingenuity

You're a person with unique ideas, big plans, and a zany outlook on life. Many people look to you for inspiration.People envy your creativity and "who cares?" attitude. They feel very ordinary next to you - and they usually are!

What Do People Envy About You?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 74% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing
Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

You Are 90% Passionate, 10% Compassionate

You are a truly passionate person, and for you, love is a drug.When you're in love, you lose all grip on reality. And it's a wild ride.Although falling in love is vivid experience for you, it's sometimes *too* intense.

Is Your Love Style Passionate or Compassionate?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.And that's marriage - with the right person.You're serious about settling down some time soon.Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's" Your Ideal Relationship?

What You Really Think Of Your Friends

Aldrich is your soulmate.

You truly love Joseph.

You consider Cabuhat your true friend.

You know that Alexis is always thinking of you.

You'll remember Raven for the rest of your life.

You secretly think Katrina is creative, charming, and a bit too dramatic at times.

You secretly think that Panda is colorful, impulsive, and a total risk taker.

You secretly think that Vincent Haoson is loyal and trustworthy to you. And that Vincent Haoson changes lovers faster than underwear.

You secretly think Jed is shy and nonconfrontational. And that Jed has a hidden internet romance.

What Do You Think of Your Friends?

Your Love Style is Manic

For you, love is the ultimate rollercoasterAnd you love to hold on tight and enjoy the rideEvery time you fall in love, it feels like the first timeAnd while it's exciting and exhilarating...It's also stressful and scary!

What's" Your Love Style?

It's gandaness lik lik birthday!

2006-09-23T16:42:00.000+08:00

It's lek lek bday...well kakaiba to sa lahat ng bday coz super bonding... Lagi kming lkwtsa with panda... ang cool coz whenever na mgksama kmi narereminisce namin nung 1st year kami....I just want to say thank you sa lahat ng kagagahan nming ttlo....Yesterday Lek lek Fetched me den we went to G4 together with panda we ate at fridays, nagpapicture ng sbra sbra... and kumain ng cream puff...I just realized na kht na madaming ngbgo sa life ko eventhough na iisip ko na kakalungkot naman lahat...I just learned to appreciate everything and anyone who makes me smile...And I thank God that i now learn to view my life differently...

Then It's Student center again...Masaya ako coz ngaun soooper close na ako sa mga bata...My Passion to teach and to serve lalo xang nag grow...Everytime I hear them Praising GOd and May mga lessons clang naaaply sa buhay nila...supeer sarap ng filing...at the same time nakikita ko c leslie na tumutulong sakin...and nag eenjoy siya....hmmm I can't ask for more.masya tlga..

Last night kachikahan ko si Cabz....I thank God for having him in my life...during these times na i usually feel alone lagi xang nandyan....I think I can't find anyone who can replace him...Wla man xa sa mga party ko or mga hppy moments ko lagi naman xa nandyan kapag down ako unlyk ung iba?...hmmmp

well That's life....I just learn to be contented sa anung meron ako....I really need more time to be more ok...I just need to focus sa other aspects of my life un kc ung mali ko eh....
hahhaha....I have a script na for film pro thank you for helping me...well i pray na mging possible xa...hmmmp ung mg gusto mag artista lapit na hahahah!

laugh trip!

2006-09-15T13:57:00.000+08:00

Funny stuff only found in the good old Philippines...
* Nakasulat sa pader:"MARUNONG KA BANG TUMAHOL? ASO LANGANG UMIIHI DITO!"

* along a highway in Pampanga:"WE MAKE MODERN ANTIQUE FURNITURE"

* in a Baguio grocery:"FRESH FROZEN CHICKEN SOLD HERE"

* in Cubao:"NONE ID NOTHING ENTRY"

* on a parking lot:"TAXI AND OUTSIDE CAR NOT ALLOWED"

* along Luneta Boulevard:"BAWAL TUMAE SA BULEVARD"

* on Jeepney and Bus signs:"BEFORE PAY, TELL WHERE GET THE ONBEFORE GET THE OFF"

* on a Flower shop in Rizal Avenue:"WE SELL ARTIFICIAL FRESH FLOWERS"

* on a delivery truck:"NOT FOR HERE"

* on window of a restaurant in Baguio:"WANTED: BOY WAITRESS"

* A grafitti inside the cubicle of a ladies' C.R. in auniversity:"PLEASE DON'T SIT LIKE A FROG, SIT LIKE AQUEEN."

* At a men's comfort room, above a urinal:"HAWAK MO ANG KINABUKASAN NG BAYAN"

* at a construction site in Mandaluyong:"BAWAL OMEHI DITO. ANG MAHOLI BOG-BOG"

* somewhere along San Andres:"NO URINATING, ON THE OVER WALLS"

* vacant lot near makati ave.:"DON'T PARKING"

* at an eatery in Cebu:"WE HAB SOPDRINK IN CAN AND IN BATOL!and this is the best of them all!!

* on a building somewhere in the Philippines..."NOTARY PUBLIC TUMATANGGAP DIN NGLABADA KUNG LINGGO"

My Darkest hour is the time to see the stars

2006-09-13T23:11:00.000+08:00

Start na ng classes.......
kakatuwa coz nung monday worlite ko Prof ko si Ms. Astete she's also the prof of my tech friends...well i think she's nice...hirap lng coz she treat us like frosh kaya kakajahe....Astig nga e kc classmate ko c bianca king.... Eventhough c tina lng kakilala ko dun adventure parin...heheh...

Den yesterday it's mio class thank God na naunderstand ko ung mga shakespeare na pinabasa nia hah windang...Kkainspire super ung galing ni shakespeare ang deep ng thinking nia....Mio was nice yesterday...d naman gnu hirap ung homework nia

after dat I wait for lek...date ulit sa pizza hut and we went to spa...super stress na kc eh...bonding moments....kakaenjoy...

hahah knina tinamaan ako ng katamaran so d ako pumsok...

pinarusahan me ni mama kaya ako ang nagsundo sa shobe ko utos pa bumili ng anu anu sa hp...

buti nalang cnamahan ako ni Cabz...masaya ako....

tagal ko din d xa nakasama...

At last naksama ko xa atleast I feel ok tlga....hehehhe...

kakatuwa....tom ulit bonding bestfriends!

la lng gusto ko lng mag blog!

2006-09-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

first day ng class knina but la naman prof badtrip hahah! pero It's a nice day...kakaktuwa ung mga bata....Teaching bible study really helps me to grow sa christian life ko....everytime na nkikita ung mga bata na nattwa sa mga gingwa namin and when it comes to singing and praising God alve sila super sarap ng filing...I'm starting to feel na gusto ko i dedicate ung sarili ko sa pagtuturo ng mga bata...hahah Ang dami kong gusto....bgla nalang pop out sa mind ko lahat ng gusto ko gawin hahahha....I have many plans sana mag work lahat....I want to work para ako naman ang magbigay ng laht ng gusto ng parents ko...I want to do everything para maging ok ung mga raket ko haha....

Super simple lhat ng nangyayare sa life ko right now walang stress and parang dedicated lang ung life ko sa sarili ko, family and kay God....As in Simple lng....ggcing magbabasa, maglalakwatsa, boding with family....usap with some friends.....magbabasa....kakanta....matutulog....Laht ng bagay na gingwa ko lahat para sakin...tagal ko din d nagawa lahat ng to! and ang nice ng feeling ko....

I'm not totally happy....but I'm totally ok....i still miss my old life...pero i know that time will come nababalik din lahat right now dapat ko muna mahalin ang sarili ko.....

I need to be ideal muna bgo ako....mag expect ng ideal someone....

I need to love my family first bgo magmhal ng kung cnu cnu

and especially

I need to serve God muna and establish ko muna ung strong relationship with him bgo ako mag love ng others....

now I'm starting to see God's reason kung bkit nia kinuha ung mga bagay na nawala sakin....

I accept it na coz I know na makakabuti ung nangyare kht nsaktan ako...

wahahhaha mio mio again....hahahah nakita ko na naman ang mga baliw kong college frends hahaha nang-ingit sa baguio wisit!

2am na gawa prin me mio...huhu!

my quiet life

2006-09-06T01:00:00.000+08:00

term break na i decided to stay home nalang... i really want to spend time with myself kaya d na me sumama sa baguio i think d me mashado makarelax but i have to admit it naiisip ko cla anu na kaya gawa nila dun....
hahaha...i miss them na...I heard na kasama ung biboy ni jed im sure enjoy super well...enjoy rin naman ako....
Last fri...I'm with kat the hul day...pnta kmi chung hua and sc with aldrich....then nung nyt it's jo's bday party....sama nga ng pakiramdam ko up to now pblik blik ung fever ko weird....!den nung sat stay lng me sa haus hmmm ok naman pla grade ko....hahahha 2.5 p me kay mio...tuloy ang csb!den un nung sun nagchrch me d hul day ksama ko c drich pnta din kmi batangas hahah ang cool super ok pla maksama ung mga churchmate ko exciting hahaha sarap biyahe papnta sa batangas....andun cla tine and jeff hahaha kaya lng mhiyain c jeff pero cool tlga....1am na kmi nakauwe den nung monday nuod me cne date with my mom...den knina la lng enroll huhu la na ako scholarship kaya pila to d max....den maybe tomorrow date with my bisprin lek lek....
I think I'm ok na....acceptance lng tlga ang kelngn ng mga bagy bgy sa mundo....Mahirap kc ipilit ung mga bagay na ayw na tlga....atleast wala na akong regrets....God is really good kasi he gave me peace of mind...wala na ako pinanghihinayangan coz i know na ginwa ko na lahat...pero d ako nging successful....

but still

I'm always hir d ako galit....

I'm always ready to forgive and to accept

I leave it all to God....

I've learned my lesson....

D ko na ipipilit ung gusto ko.....

mananahimik na ako....

d n ako mapapagod di na ako magtitiis....

pababayaan na kita....pababayaan ko na ang mga mangyayare....

Kaibigan kita kahit anung mangyre sana ganun ka rin....

hahaha yoko na bye bye!

I'm just too weak to face the truth

2006-08-31T15:53:00.000+08:00

How can I fall?

Give me time to care
The moment's here for us to share
Still my heart is not always there
What more can I say to you
Could I lie to you
I'm just too weak to face the truth
Now I know I should make a move
What more can I say
How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons at all
When all faith is gone
I fight myself to carry on
Yes I know of the harm I do
What more can I say to you
Now I hold this line
I know the choice to leave is mine
I can't help what I feel inside
What more can I say
How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons at all
I'll follow through, I'll say I do
When the time is far more right for you
I'll make that move, and when I do
Will I doubt again, the way I do
How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons at all
How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons
How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons
Just won't give me reasons
Just won't give me reasons at all
How can I fall, I fall, I fall
How can I fall for you
How can I fall, how can I fall
When you just won't give me reasons
When you just won't give me reasons

AfRaiD....

2006-08-21T18:48:00.000+08:00

sa laht ng nngyayare and sa lahat ng nararamdaman ko

I know that there is always advantages and disadvantages....

I think I'm starting to b ok

I'm starting to endure all the pains na nararamdaman ko....I'm trying to smile again and i think somehow i've realized my worth....coz lagi ko nga cnasabi sa sarili ko na I can't control everything....wala akong mggwa...I just need to hold on sa SARILI ko at kay God....

I entitled my blog "afraid" because un na ang nararamdaman ko sa lahat i think im afraid of life

i'm afraid to trust and to love

i'm afraid to give importance to all the people around me because i've proved that they are all not worthy NO EXCEMPTION! i'M not telling this because im sad or what but im telling this because un ung narealized ko sa life ko sometimes u nid tp be wise I'm so tired of being the "sablay"

I'm afraid to depend my happiness sa kht na sino....U cant trust anyone trust me....

Ur only friend, family and angel is urself and God...

I'm glad at i've known God because if d dhil sknya wla na akong strenght right now even sa mga tao akala kong mhal ako they all leave me

well....still no man is an island just need to be wise....

knina i went to sir pineda...at least one down na....tom exhibit na for mio atleast tapos na ako im just not so confident sa gawa ko...

I'm afraid tom coz I know na may mangyyare well sana mali ako....well sumablay ako eh i should face the consequences

to end my entry.....i just want to tell myself "Life must go on" i'm obligated eh!

2006-08-17T10:48:00.000+08:00

is it really hard to love me?

i really need to know the answer....

I'm not writing this blog to shout to the world that I'm sad and everything

I just want to pour out my feelings....coz la naman akong mkausap....I really feel alone parang bglang nawala ung mga tao sa pligid ko....

so for those pipol who read this please....don't mind me.....

having my heart really broken for the first time...is so painful!

what's worse i feel like dying and it seems the whole world was just watching

i really want to buy a heart repair kit but the reality was i was born with a heart that can't b repaired that easily

I really don't know where to start...I'm so tired of everything loving someone and you don't even know if he really loves you...

2x ng ganito....ayw ko na....so aya tatang if you read my blog please ans my question...i know you know the ans....

I'm not angry i'm just so down i lost a friend and i lost the love of my life....

8 years kong inalagaan laht...and now everything is over....

dati im just imagining my life without him but now i should face it....

my most unforgettable bday....my worst bday...

what more can i ask? ang ganda tlga ng bday gift ng buhay sakin!

im out!

a Gift to myself....

2006-08-14T16:24:00.000+08:00

my Simple August!

2006-08-14T15:21:00.000+08:00

Grabe tlga...ang bilis ng panahon....

parang kailn lng...nagsimula lng ung term den ngaun busy na sobra dhil finals na...prang kailan lng...nag 18 ako tpos tom 19 na ko....parang kailan lng naging kmi ni jo...tpos ngaun 1 year n kmi...

That's why na realized that i really need to treasure every moment na meron ako...

right now....?super simple lng ng feeling ko....

this is my first bday na di ako magcelebrate....
this is my first bday na wala ache k...
this is my first bday na may boyfriend ako...
this is my first bday na umuulan
super simple lng ng feeling

nakaktouch sbra everytym na may nakakaalala ng bday ko para i really feel special....

ung tipong sa super bc ko eh may tao na magpapaalala na bday ko pla....

anestly i really dont have tym na coz ang hirap ng finals lahat exhibit...macquette, costumes, floorplans na umiikot ung life ko...I'm so tired of it...pero no choice...

simple na nga lng ung mga gimik and happenings ko eh....dalaw dalaw lng mga friends sa haus, church...un lng pero still d naman ako ganu nalulungkot...

I'm just nervous sa mga things na ipapass na d ko pa nggwa....

Soooper dami na ngbago....

I think I'm more mature na....cguro nga 19 na ako eh...hay bye bye 18....last year na ng pgiging teen ko...hahahah.....

Cge na back to work n ulit!

To ThE WoRLd's GrEaTesT Mom

2006-07-25T22:40:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow is my mom's birthday...

Mama,

I'm so thankful for having you in my life....i know that I'm not an ideal daughter...madami kang reklamo paminsan...but I just want to say that kaht pasaway ako....I really love you to death....

I wish that you'll be happy tomorrow....You know that I will do everything for you....as in everything

I wish that you'll have a long long long long 100000000000000000000000000000000x life....because I can live in total loneliness but i can't live without you and papa....

thank you for the love, care, Trust and freedom.....

Yun Lang....

I love you supeeeeeeeeer dupeeeeeeeeeeeer much!

God bless you.....mwah happy betday

-Shirley

hmmm add lang I just want to greet beeetch "Happy 11th monthsary"

Life is good when I'm with you....

To LiVe is To LeArN

2006-07-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

The past weeks of my life....was a total "sabog days"... I was so selfish....Defending myself eventhough i dont know how....

Madami akong narealized....na learned...

I learned to forgive and to love myself....

I need to be wise and to be "TRUE"

I should be proud of myself....because God created me with his wonderful hands

I'm so guilty in doubting my ownself....

Babawi ako....

I should always be the "happy and Kikay shirley"

To those people who miss the old me don't worry I found myself again.....

Time is all i need...

Yun lang...

so happy na walang mio infante today....

This week I expect to be happpy happpy

dami happenings excited ako.....

July 25- Our 11 Monthsary

July 26- My mom's 55th birthday

July 28- Awarding ek ek...for my DL thingy

July 30- Mag ninang me....

All i can say is that God is soooo Good... He gave me burden but he also gave me shoulders....

and it's enough

He taught me...

na magtiis he made realized that if you really love a person u should know how to accept him through good times and Bad times....
My fantasy world and my Mr. Perfect doesn't exist
It's better na masktan kaysa manakit
I should be more mature in every aspect of my life
wag maging super sensitive
Guys are different from girls....They have hard hearts
Wag uminom ng expectorant...
to love others as much as i love myself
True love= True self...
Mahal na mahal ko tlga xa....

I HaTe MySeLf!

2006-07-19T01:50:00.000+08:00

1. what do you do when you're mad?
keep quiet....think think and then cry....pray....shout...ang weird ng feeling!

2. what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?
away tlga....sapakan....

3. ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
yep....

4. ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?
yep....

5. do you curse when you're mad?
i'm afraid to curse maybe biro biro....pero i don't min it....im not that bad....

Crying Section*
1. last time you cried your heart out ?
Last night

2. ever cried yourself to sleep?
of course that's the only time to burst my feelings

3. ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
yap so many times

4. do you cry when you get an injury?
no....I usually shout....

5. do certain songs make you cry?
yep i'm too emotional...

Pain Section*.
1. what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?
everything is worst...when im mad....walang sinasanto!

2. how depressed can you get?
i don't know but i can do everything when it's about my own happiness

*Happy Section*
1. how much do u smile?
hmmmp minsan minsan moody tlga me...

2. what can make you happy?
God and myself....i think....actually i don't know...

3.do you wish you were happier?
of course....i wish that I can be strong like before....so that i can be happier

4. what about being with your friends,does that make u happy?
yes it makes me happy but it's temporary it's like putting mask...infront of them....unlike when your alone....your free

Hate Section*
1. have you ever hated any one that broke your heart?
hmmm nope i'd rather hate myself

2. do you hate Bush?
I'm mad wanna die! Sabog na tanung!

Self-Esteem Section*
1. is your self-esteem extremely low?
yep very low

2. do you believe in yourself?
dati.....but i still want to believe....i dont have any choice...

3. what do you say when people say they think you are good looking/pretty?
smile lng!....pero sa mind sinungaling!

4. are you one of those idiots that thinkthey are ugly,dumb, and fat?
yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

5. ever wanted to kill yourself cuz you thought you weren't good enough?
d naman...pinapagod ko lng hanggng ma lowbatt

6. are you happy with who you are?
noon...pero now nope beeetch tlga ako!

sabog!

2006-07-17T22:57:00.000+08:00

Sabog na lahat....Sabog! Sabog! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

ayw ko na!

MaH sUpErMaN...

2006-07-05T21:36:00.000+08:00

Hmmm ayw matanggal ng face ni superman sa icp ko argh!hhehe well it's my first time to watch superman..natuwa tlga ako...i'm starting to beaddict sa mga english movies...I was forced to love those movies....hahah

Well Last week ntpos ko ung macquette hay Nonstop na gawa up to 4am sabi nga ni jo muka na akong bombay! grrrr....Hehhhe...

Last sun ako nanuod ng superman sa moa...we planned to watch sa imax pero d kinaya ng oras...so sa regular cinma nalang ang cool coz bonding kmi ni jo and sis ko...it was one of the best lakwatsa and unforgettable pa....Grabe ang gwapo ni superman dream guy tlga!

Den nung monday super shopping galore sa divi...coz dun kc kmi nag class astig db hahah....

den yesterday pasahan ng macquette well para akong natagalan ng tinik....

Den knina i took my lightdes exm i got 86%

Hmmm....I dropped my perdraw class na....well i realized that d ko kailangan magpaka superman kng health ko ung naaffect...

cge na...just want to relax and have fun!

I rEaLLy miSS mY BLog

2006-06-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

so wat's new....?

hmm...sbrang bc as in hinika na me at lahat....macquette, rendering, paperworks, Drawing Drawing Drawing!....Dian umikot ang life ko this month...I have lots of responsibilities...La na c si Yaya...den I was assigned to teach bible study sa mga elementary sa student center every friday...well sobrang ok naman coz atleast nagkaroon ako ng 1 day na spend ko lng talaga kay God....and dun ko lng din nakakasama ung iba kong frend and c beetch

Nakakamiss na din maglakwatsa...bahay and skul lng me ngaun mukang bombay na dw ako sa sbrang laki ng eyebags ko huhuhu...well ngaun medyo phinga ako gawa paper for film tom....I want to graduate na....sbra na to!

But Thank God na nakita ko din naman ung result ng pagod ko... may awarding sa july 28 db kc na mintain ko ung 3 term na DL heheh excited na ako... Sabay bday ng mama ko nun...atleast astig ung gift ko...hahah gtg... na bawi ako nxt tym...

so here's a picture of my macquette for ghost hahah d pa xa tapos aausin ko uli kc minadali ko

and

My super hero for my costume design class!

2006-06-10T18:07:00.000+08:00

You Have a Sanguine Temperament
You are an optimistic person who is easily content.You enjoy casual, light tasks - never wanting to delve too deep into anything.A bit fickle, it's easy for you to change plans or paths when presented with something better.You enjoy all of the great things life has to offer - food, friends, and fun.A great talker, you can keep the conversation going for hours.You are optimistic and sure of your success. If you fail, you don't worry about it too much.At your worst, you are vain. You are obsessed with your own attractiveness.A horrible flirt, you tend to jump into love affairs and relationship drama easily.You're very jealous - which just magnifies the craziness around you.

Your Hidden Talent
Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.People crave your praise and complements.

You Will Die at Age 73
You're pretty average when it comes to how you live...And how you'll die as well.

Your Birth Month is August
Ambitious and strong, you find it easy to be successful.You are brave and stubborn. No one's going to set your limits!Your soul reflects: Strength, character, and devotionYour gemstone: PeridotYour flower: PoppyYour colors: Orange, red, and light green

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts.Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

Your True Love Is an Aries
Why you'll love an Aries:An Aries has the red-hot seduction skills to woo youNever boring, an Aries will give you the romantic challenge you crave!Why an Aries will love you:You have the intensity and energy to go head to head with your Aries...And the undying passion to keep an Aries coming back for more.

Your Personality Is
Idealist (NF)You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

You Are a Bright Star Soul
Like a shining star, you have no trouble being the center of attentionIn fact, you often feel a bit hurt wh of pure energyYou posess a divine quality or uniqueness that's hard to defineA natural performer, it's likely you'll become famous in some circles.Just learn not to take everyone's reaction to you so personally!Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul and Prophet Soul

Your Values Profile
Loyalty:You value loyalty a fair amount.You're loyal to your friends... to a point.But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.Honesty:You don't really value honesty.You do value getting your way, no matter what.And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)Generosity:You value generosity a fair amount.You are all about giving, as long as there's some give and take.Supportive and kind, you don't mind helping out a friend in need.But you know when you've given too much. You have no problem saying "no"!Humility:You value humility a fair amount.You tend to be an easy going, humble person.But occasionally your ego takes over.You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.Tolerance:Not only do you prefer to be around people very similar to you...They're the only kind of people you'll tolerate.You know what you believe in, and you don't like to deviate from that.You don't hate people who are very different - you just don't want to be around them.

en all eyes aren't on youYou need to be number one in everything, no matter how trivialAnd it's this ego that both hurts your confidence and helps you acheiveYou're dramatic and a powerhouse

Back... Again....Same....

2006-06-03T21:14:00.000+08:00

I'm always here...no where to go....smiling... striving....pretending...defending myself...sinning...loving... still hurting

It's so tiring...same old story...

I have everything...

All i want is now here...

But I'm still searching for something I need...

Thank God he's there...

I still have strenght and hope...

No need to defend myself

No need to work for men...

I just need to be still...

coz I know he understand what I feel that other's dont...

Please Lord let them understand me....

Please remind me that I dont need anybody but you

Don't let me forget you and myself

give me strenght to go away

help me to accept that they will not understand me...

I need to stop and go on b quiet and still...

Loving you......giving you my heart only to you....

AfraiD...

2006-05-29T11:55:00.000+08:00

Me as a student again...hay so tiring...

It's so sad that 1st week plang ng class e parang finals na...nakakastress sobra...Imagine na camp and ung tagaytay lng ung outing ko...d man lng ako nakapagbeach...The whole may i had lots of activities: Kid's camp, cpmp, df, Fop hay wala akong pahinga...
At first i tot that this term will be exciting coz hands-on na pero...super galing ng mga prof yet sobrang pahirap...

Costume: Eric Pineda(Costume Designer of Majika)
Scene Design: Mio Infante (Top Production Designer of the Philippines)
Rendering: Malou Santos
Light Design: Jay Aranda(Also a Famous Lighting Designer)
Perspective Drawing (Ms. Ervite)...Takot ako!
Film Design : Dean Gerry Torres

Hinde na ako excited takot na ako...I think I need to give up my other commitments kc d ko na tlga kaya...First week palang Mr. Infante asked us to make 4 production book...I remember when I first asked to do a Production book it takes me 3 weeks to finish it...
tpos 4 production book in a week grabe nakakbaliw...

Sabay marami pang sagabal sa pag-aaral ko...

Wala na c Yaya...I need to do some chores sa bahay
I need to Go home 9pm coz of my evening classes alone...it takes 20 minutes para umalis ung orange na jeep... kaya lalo akong ginagabi
Every thurs. I have 5 hrs break...I dont want to go home sayang pera...Nawaste lng un tym mdyo gipit kc...
Printer! I dont have Printer! Cra Cra!
Most of all, walang pakialam parents ko...I'm asking all of this lng naman parang mas convenient pag-aaral ko pero la lang...

At last nung sat night...nataps ko din ung prod buk...after a non-stop reading and analyzing e natapso din...para akong nabunutan ng tinik

Sun...D na naman ako nakachurch coz its my aya ton's engagement party...Of course chinese Tradition!..Sooo happy kc filing ko...un lng uli ako nakalabs kc dahil sa prod buk bahay skul lng me...without phone and anything...I'm glad coz dumating ung some relatives ko from Davao...In fairness mabilis ko cla naging close I tot na mahihiya ako coz bata pa tlga ako wen I last saw them...especially my Achi Jackie..I always admired her looks and everything..mamaya nga after my class we will went to rp with les and ron...papakilala ko xa haha!

Tom...my laptop is coming...I'm not sure pero un ung sabi...Bait tlga ni God...when I feel na la na tlga ako magagawa he still give me d best...I really thank him na binigyan nia ako ng mga friends...na super ok tlga...they really shown me care and everything na sometimes d ko nakikita sa family ko

Rey & Ron: Cla ang nagprint ng project ko WALANG KPALIT! ang bait db?They always call me this week para lng kamustahin ako...Proxy muna cla kay jo haha!

My bestfriend Alexis: Kaht wala xang pasok punta pa tlga xa sa csb para lng tulungan ako sa mga projects ko...Hay Thank you is not enough tlga...Kapag pagod na ako hahatid pa nia ako...Den esp...mag date kmi sa aming favorite na Pizza Hut...Thnks

Aldrich: Non-Stop ang pagpapasmile sakin...

Kat & Haoson....: Pangungulit haha! Nakaktanggal stress!

Eventhough wla c jo...D naman ako mashadong nalungkot but of course I miss him...besides uwe na xa bukas...hehe!

Yesterday we (Ron, Rey, Lek and me) also went to Mall of Asia Grabe nahilo ako! Ang laki...sarap din ng kinain namin...

And today... I need to defend my snow white costume thingy...God bless sakin!

2006-05-20T13:16:00.000+08:00

I'd Rather Be Green Than Be Blue (The La Sallista Song)

Kamusta na mga 'tol, kapwa kong LaSallista Year 2000 na,

di ka rin nag-iba Magaling gumalaw, bolero nga naman

Nguni't bilib ako sa layo nang iyong narating.

Di gaya nang iba, satsat lang nang satsat

Pagdating sa basketbol wala namang binatbat

Dribble nang dribble di naman maka-shoot

Sa strike lang ni Paeng buhok nila'y kukuloooot

Chorus:

If I were to live my whole life again,

I'd still want to be a LaSallista pa rin Bayaran mana ako,

I will still say to you

I'd rather be green than be blue

Mahirap daw magmahal nang syota nang iba

Yan ang sabi sa awitin nang tatlong matanda Megastar, boldstar, star for all seasons

LaSallista lang pala ang hinahanap nila

Kawawa naman ang mga iba diyan

Nagtutulong-tulungan, di naman yumayaman Manager, chairman, presidente daw sila

Nguni't LaSallista ang mayari nang kumpanya

(Chorus)

Wag mo 'kong subukan, that's what Erap said

Di naman siya uurungan ni Ms. Gorayeb

Mga loyalista, daldal nang daldal

Wag kang magtataka kung bakit - binaril si Rizal!

Ano, binaril? Bakit? Eh Atenista eh...

Mestiso man o hindi, pandak man o kirat Pagdating sa entertainment,

LaSallista ang lahat Beauty queen, model, napapalingon

Nguni't LaSallista lang pala ang hinahanap nila

Si Gary, si Randy, at si mega-Mel

Ilan lang sa madaming LaSallistang sikat

Si Michael De Mesa, si Cocoy Laurel Pati na si Ogie at si Juan Miguel

Frosh orientation '06 is finished...

My 3 days as an orientor isn't easy...

Like last year everything isn't that smooth...

First day(SDA): I handled the fashion design students medyo ok lng but konti lng sila... they are all girl plus 2 gays... I really have a hard time dealing with girls I really find them snob eh...specially gays...but they are ok...My partner christopher was ok but sobrang daldal he loves lecturing to the point we have small time left for games...This yr. Fashion design students are all beautiful they are like model kaka elibs... After that I went to katrina's house coz alexis is back may get together kami...She gave me shades i love it!

Second day(SMIT): My favorite day because Kuya ezer was my partner were both energetic and very makulit....Soo hapy because madaming student and they are all nice...Maraming cute and they are not kj....but the bad thing is pina stay sila sa arw sa plaza v. i really pitied them after that I went to alexis house...she gave me blouse and perfume...I really love my bestfriend!...I got home around 9pm with joseph....He will go to hongkong sa monday...8 days siya dun that is why I want to be with him until sunday...

Third day(HRIM): We have 900 student during this day that's is why one man show ako...It's really hard for me kc ang dami nila then mag-isa lng ako... puyat pa me kaya my energy isn't that high...naorient ko si nico and sarah one of my friend during highschool in leslie's batch I'm happy for that coz they helped me...but there were 3 students from Ica Cr cla ng cr for almost ilang minutes when i pick them up i find them chatting..nabadtrip tlga ako coz...d ko mahati ung katawan then they are not helping me pa and they are some students na sbrang bibo to the point na bastos na ang dating....after that I asked for a dummy but luckily...one of the block of the transferees was dissolved kaya nasamhan ako ni ate Karl... but then d parin namin kaya coz the girls want to go home na....hay.. Thank God that after our tour maybe they find me nice narin...naging love na namin ung isa't isa i even dance infront of them hahah! After the orientation Sir gil talked to me he asked me to be his astant stage manager to his foreign ek ek ba yun we have meetin today...Ms. alfon recommended me well i hope na kayanin ko...

After that Jo, rey and ron visited me at my house...Umalis na yaya ko that's why i need to help my mama...

LoNg StOry...

2006-05-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

Kid's day camp last week sobrang busy sobrang stressful haha nangayayat nga ako eh wahaha but then sobrang sarap ng feeling may sense of fulfillment and sense of joy tlga ako sa heart ko...

Ist day: Eventhough i really feel bad about my life lately...I really tried na kalimutan lht un and it really disappeared..I'm soo happy seeing children na kht naninibago pa cla e makikita m sa face nila ung excitement...Early in the morning nagkron kmi ng singspiration well d pa sanay ung mga bata kaya mdyo d naging maaus ung singspi... after dat we had our game napunta sa grup ko ung most of my pamangkin I'm so happy kc...db d nila ako kilala but then bcoz of the camp nakilala nila ako...after dat pnta na kmi sa room with my group (adrian, bea, brnadette and aldrich) handle namin ung Gr. 4-6 ...of course super hirap i-handle kc mahirap na utuin heheh...soo isip me mga games hahah of course galing sa orientation ung mga gnwa ko..well it's nice kc mabilis ko nakipalagayan ung loob ng mga bata...It's soo nice to hear them calling u atchi or teacher...after dat eat and then pnta na sa origami class...sobrang pagod...pagkauwe ko 2log ako agad the suddenly Jo came...mdyo msma loob ko saknya but then thank God na naaus din...

2nd Day: 6 am parin me gcng hehe...c arianne na ung sumama sakins so nasama xa sa grup namin... I met this liitle cute korean girl her name is eu-jin she really melt my heart...sobrang love ko na xa agad...everytym na la me gagawin I make sure naksama ko xa sbrang tuwa tlga me sknya...mdyo ok na ung 2nd day...nagcounselling ako with the daughter of coach dogie sobrang saya coz it's my first tym...God really blessed me kc evn if feeling ko d enough ung mga sinbi ko my counselees appreciated what I've done...and sobrang saya...coz i feel na nashare ko din sakanila ung joy na...may God ako sa buhay ko...whom I run to tlga...after that Joseph pick me up...Guess wat eventough sbrang pagod na ako d parin me break down...d nga daw ako hagard eh! iba tlga pag u love what ur doing and God really give me strenght and patience tlga para sa mga kids...

3rd day: sobrang ok na day to coz ako nag lesson...It's nice to see na naiintindhan ng mga bata ung mga cnsabi ko after that we had an activity about trust...sobrang effective...kaya astig tlga...after that counseling with ann...she had a problem na sobrang d kinaya ng powers ko...sobrang natouch and naiyak ako...I appreciated everything na meron ako...nakakencourage xa sbra... God really make a way for me to show his love for her...kaya ok naman after dat...same routine origami class and etc...After that we had a group sharing i saw tlaga na God really work during the camp...sbrang daming circumstances na gumawa tlga xa ng way para mging maaus after da camp punta me with ayan sa hp to buy simple token for the children I only bought 100 pesos pero nakarun parin me ng way para makabili hehhe astig noh ...after dat we went to bluwave with my brkda... katrina had a big problem and as a friend I know that she really need someone we ate sa mc do... tlk about her problem and thank God na naaus naman...at the same time I'm trying to make up for jo...I realized my faults...and I'm willing to change for our relationship...

Last day: Sad day... I thought na d ko matatpos ung mga letters for our students...but again thank God at nataps ko...I'm soo happy evrytym taht My student hug me and tell me thank you achi srap ng feeling some of them gave me letters, chocolate, pin, bag and accessories...sobrang nakaktouch...after dat my parang amazing race game kami 2nd placer kmi astig mga pamangkin ko ang gagaling mana sakin wahaha... and then un last day na bye bye tym na pero Nothing can replace the happiness that I felt during those time...up to now.. God is really a wonderful God I really want to serve him kc dun ko lng nakikita ung happiness na hinahanap ko the best tlga...den nung gabi again punta uli jo sa haus ko...happeee happeee

Saturday: stay lng the hul day sa haus den aldrich, kat and jo went to my haus chikhan after dat hul day me sa comp just a simple and peaceful day...

Sunday: went to church and sent ayan sa sunday skul...Mother's day heheh after church ayan and I went to Hp. to buy gift sa mga mommy namin kakatuwa! coz hapee hapee...but pagdating nga hapon as usual..no family day...but I'm still hoping na mgiging ok din ung family ko...I went to hp...nagshopping ako alone and massage I love me day haha!

Today: nagabsent ako sa Fop Training antok me eh I need to store energy para sa orientation...excited na ako...stay lang haus then mga 6pm sundo me jo and we went to kat's haus saya! lkas trip we ate ihaw ihaw hehe...saya at kaht papano...we have bonding tym na maaus uli... Were waiting for lek lek...

well un lng... magiging bc uli for the orientation...update nalang me pagtapos God bless you all!

OpEniNg mY wOrLd...

2006-05-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

Life isn't easy especially kapag tumatanda ka na...There are things na...You need to give importance eventhough ayw mo...Before I always treat the small problems as big deal like lovelife, studies and friendship...While Family problems for me isn't that important...now that mdyo matured na ako...Things suddenly changed...

I'm not used to these problems...It's hard

Especially kapag la ka magawa...
Especially kapag lagi mong iniisip na maaus lahat but then hinde pala...
Especially kapag d ka sanay sa ganun...hay...That's life!That's my life...
I just want thank God for giving me strenght...for being my parent...w/o my hope sknya ewan ko na....
I just want thank everyone for showing me their care...
I just want to thank Jo for all the love he gave me...He's the only person who can make me smile...sa mga tyms na to! I hope I can be strong like him...

I need to be strong and wise...God please help me!

SuRvEy...For BoReD....

2006-05-02T01:01:00.000+08:00

*your family calls you*- Shobsss...

*your friends calls you* -Shirleng singkit, Shirl, She sa highschool friends collge "sherlotz"

*the person/s you love most*- My Parents, My Sister, My Yaya, Ache Sana n Leslie, My Pamangkin...esp. Ayan n Sofia, Joseph, Cabz, Lek, Cesar and my whole barkada...

*last thing you did before this*- Watch teleserye hahah...

*last thing that made you cry*- Ms. Ervite...Tecdra....

*last thing that made you smile:*- Joseph's Comment on myspace

*the person(s) you trust:*- Cabz, Justine, Lek and Kat

*the last book you read:*- Checklist for Life and Bible

*what color shirt are you wearing now:*- Orange polka dots haha!

*favorite place*- Bluwave, Rp, Hp, Church, Kabarkada's House

*you prefer to have long or short hair:*- Long Hair

*favorite colour:*- PINK, black and White

*describe what you are feeling now:*- Wala...wala ako nafefeel!

*last person who wrote testimonial for you*- Panda!

*what time did you go to bed last night.*- around 1am

*the person u need now:*- No one....

*does someone like you or admire u now:*- Humble ako wala...haha joke Don't know!

*choose: angel or baby:*- Angel na!

*last person who called you:*- Reynaldo

*black, blue or white:*- Black

*computer or mobile:*- Mobile

*what will you be doing tomorrow morning*- sleep

*what will you be doing tomorrow afternoon:*- Training Frosh orientation!

mY pRoMisE...

2006-04-29T19:18:00.000+08:00

Joseph and I are sick....my sinus xa while my sore throat ako...

nasa haus nila ako for two days...I really want to checked if he's ok...

Know wat...Ngaun lng ako nafeel na super concerned ako sa isang tao...maybe that's what true love really means...

Yesterday usap lng kmi sa roof top nila...As We looked sa view...I started to tell him my dreams...and everything that I want to tell him...
Feeling ko nga d ako c Shirley hahaha!

It's our 8th month and I still love him and super na nag grow pa...

We all know that Joseph grew up na walang parents....I really admired his strenght and independence...Kaya nga I promised myself that I'll love him hangang sa kaya ko...I'll try to give the love na kulang nia...of course I know that no one can fill that naman pero....I'm willing....that's how much I love him

mY sUndaY...God's Day

2006-04-24T18:56:00.000+08:00

Sunday...it's Sabbath day...As usual mdyo late na naman ako hahah...It's nice to see people like joana chi...hahah everytym i see them...super nareminisce ko tlga ung high school life ko whaahah...Super gnda nung msg nung sunday it's about spiritual man, normal man and carnal man...hahahe i evaluate myself kasali ako sa carnal man...hahah carnal man are those people na d nagrow as a christian ng mabilis coz walang determination...well I will try to change naman...hahah! Soo happy coz after our service cnundo c leslie ng mama nia den sumaby na ako...dun ako ng lunch saknila...i'm starting na gumaang na ang loob sknila...Amah is starting to recognize me...Well it's big deal for me...when I was a child I had many bad experiences of being rejected by her and now...I'm trying to forget it na...I want to...start a new relationship with her...Well after dat nanuod kmi ni Leslie ng cne...Achie and shobe bonding hahah...lamon to d max...hahah we watched "Pamahiin" hahah horror movies fanatic tlga kc ako...ewan ko exciting kc db I'm fond of horror house din mahilig tlga ako sa thrill weird but it's true hahah buti nlng e pareho kmi ni leslie na ganun...maganda ung movie ang freaky...pasdo na sa taste ng future Production designer hahah...but aminado ako na Filipino movies need polishing parin especially sa mga effects...d parin kc nalalayo sa shake rattle and roll na effects e...pero story wise naman maganda coz it's a kind of movie na magulo but d ka mamakatyo hnngng d m matpos cz mapapaisip ka tlga kung anu tlga meron sa story...astig...but one thing I dislike about the movie ang weird din coz never tnawag ung name ni God hahah...syempre kung nandun k sa situation cnu dapat mong twagin ayt? Dennis Trillo is really a good actor...c Iya naman...mag vj nlng xa..hahah mean joke lng...well kulng kc ung emotion e... Before we watched "pamahiin" yesterday...pinalabas ung trailer ng "Da vinci code" well it really make me sad...I really wonder bat ganun ung mga tao...but what can we do...Satan is working...he is sooo trying hard to destroy Jesus Christ...but...as a Christian I experienced God's love and Nobody can't take that away from me....why read...The gospel of Judas? before reading that people must first read Matthew, mark, luke and John...sbi nga sa church why read the gospel of Judas...if its true why Judas hang himself hahah people who read that baka hang din nila ung sarili nila...besides that Gospel is not accurate in history wise...bsta...I really pray that makonsensya ung mga taong ganun they dont know what they miss...they will regret that...they dont know how happy I am...na naniniwala ako Kay Jesus... all I can say is if hinde totoo si Jesus then I believe na totoo xa walang mawawala skin but those people who doesn't believe na 220 xa and if totoo xa...Lagot kau...I really feel bad...because they are destroying my God....they don't know that he's my life...
Though I can't see Your holy face
And Your throne in heaven above
It seems so far away
Though I cant touch your nail scarred hands
I have a deep and unspeakable joy
That makes my faith to standLord, I believe in You
I'll always believe in You
Though I cant see you with my eyes
Deep in my heart Your presence
I find Lord, I believe in You
And I'll keep my trust in You
LET THE WHOLE WORLD SAY WHAT THEY MAY
NO ONE CAN TAKE THIS JOY LORD, I BELIEVE
Born from above
You are Gods only chosen one
Youre the one and only true way
To the Fathers heart You died for all sin
Then you rose and now live again
Conquering death and the grave
So that I might live...

oUr SaTuRdAy ReUniOn

2006-04-24T18:35:00.000+08:00

Last saturday when I felt sooo down...bgla akong niyaya ni Kat mag harrison den bglang may tumwag si jason he told me nasa bahay ko dw cla (JAYSON, JONARD and EARVIN) they are my kabarkadas during 4th year high school...they are also the people who help to grow as a Christian cla kc ung mga kasama ko nung bgo plng akong mging christian I really value our frendship because I know that our foundation is God......I remember those days...na lagi kming nasa Bible study...in our second home "Student Center"...tpos every saturday nagpupunta kmi ng Gideon para magbasketball...ang saya nung mga tyms na un...cla ung mga frends kong tipong gago gago pero mas matino pa sa mga matitino hahahah....Ang cool nga coz Eventhough minsan nlng kming magkita kita...Lagi parin cla andyaan kpag malungkot ako ung tipong dadating cla kung kelan down na down ako eventhough d ko cnsbi...That's why God is sooo God...He really show me his love for me...kaya ok na ako...after dat dumating c justine ko...hay...after a long time ngaun lng ako uli tumawa ng sobra sobra hahah because of sai...hahaha super clown tlga xa...Den another problem comes...Naglasing na naman papa ko den umalis xa bgla nawala...Thank God that andyan c justine cnamhan nia kmi maghanap kay Papa...Justine is lyk my little bro na rin...c mama nga anak na tlga trato saknya...xa ang takbuhan ko kpg lumalayas ako actually xa tlga ang nagpakilala kay GOd skin...now na college na xa...I'm not worried coz I know na xa parin ung justine na super love ko...well...that's how my saturday ends...

Am I sTiLL HaPPy?

2006-04-22T17:25:00.000+08:00

I just want to...let all my feelings to come out...I don't know kung anung filing ko ngaun it's just that...I feel incomplete and unimportant...Sometimes iniisip ko...if I chose the right person...I always wish that one day magcing ako and my heart will stop beating for him...like i did before I miss those times na...magbestfriend lng kmi no more no less...but what can I do mahal ko tlga xa...that's why i really hate myself for that...Im trying...to b the right person for him...pero I feel that I'm still not enough mybe idealistic lng ako sbra...but eto tlga ung nrrmdaman ko...I'm starting to give up...one of my friend told me that..."If xa ang howe m matututo ka tlga kung anu tlga ang mining ng relationship" Honestly ang dami ko tlga na learn sknya...He disciplined me and taught me things that I should know para mging hppy and maaus ang life ko and i really thank him for that...pero grrr... i don't know confuse tlga ako...but one thing I'm sure kaya ako nagkakaganito it's because...

I know that he's my everything...

and

I really hate myself for that....

and

I want to be free...to love myself again...

I'm iNLovE wiTh MySeLf

2006-04-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

wow...ang dami kong kwento...of course #1 na ung camp...I have many things na dapat ipag thank you kay God 1st, I got 2.0 sa tecdra...well I really prayed for it and d nagdamot c God binigay nia un sakin...well that same day nakasama ko c joseph sa hp...kanta knta kming dlwa...quality tym...pero mas mgling akong singer sknya wahahah!

then nung gabi nun...pnta na me camp...super nagenjoy ako sa camp unlike ung sa mga previous years i tried to reach out make new frends...masaya coz Naksama ko c David( he's my nephew sa Davao bata pa ako nung naksama ko xa and sooo happy that ngkita kmi uli) Soo glad na nging close kmi agad...were both adik sa jokes and soooper sarap namin tumawa...Masaya rin coz...Ksama ko plgi c Leslie, Aldrich, Emman, Justine and Haoson...unlike last year na konti lngung close ko na sumama...super bonding tlga...den counselor ko rin c ache precious...well 2nd tym ko na xa counselor...she's really an angel in disguise tlga...Sooper dmi kong natutunan sa camp...I realized ung mga mali ko...And I want to change and grow maturely sa christian life ko...Soo happy na kabond ko din ung mga cousin ko...after ilang years always akong nakatago sa knila...and now I'm starting to show them na I want to be close to them...Ang sya nung last night sa camp...Especially the praise night nagburst tlga ung heart ko sa happiness and joy na feel ko for God...Den nung sat uwe na...Pinuntahan ako ni Jo and Kat after that...Bonding with leslie and david before xa blik sa davao...

Sunday...Easter...nagchurch ako...tpos napasali ako sa kid's camp...soo happy na atlast may chance na ako makapag serve sa Church...den pnta ako knila aldrich...den uwe na and family day...see how God work...2 consecutive week na akong may Family day...!knowing my family pa...wala na c jo nag shanghai na xa....nakakmiss nga eh...
Monday...stay lng sa haus tinamad akong umatend ng df i'm planning to leave df muna
Tuesday...Tambay with kat sa bahay den went to Center for pop hahah I'm Back...I really want to sing...I hope na may mangyre pa hahahah....

Now...Kakauwe lng nila rey and kat...parepareho kaming may namimisss hahah
Tomorrw ist day na ng cpmp ko sooo excited
"I'm Inlove with myself" heheh la lng kc this past few days super exercise ako...hanap pagkakakitaan, enroll kung saan saan trying to improve evrything..I'm reading inspirational books...and I'm happy...I'm really happy...God bless with me ng sobra sobra tha's why I can't ask for more....

I really miss lek and Joseph...I can't wait na mabuo tau uli at lakwatsa to d max...
Well for those people na nalulungkot you know who you are just pray...God knows all ur sufferings and d ka nia pababayaan...Tested na xa db?!

Kaya Guys...If u want to buy delsey bags...contact nio lng me...09193956423 above ung picture...bili nmn kau...thanks!

Those pipol na gusto mag bible study....atend kau every friday 8pm sa UECPasay park ave bsta txt nio nlng me ty and God bless!

I wiLL miss mY LekLek...

2006-04-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

Umalis na c lek...papuntang states well eventhough 1 month lang xa dun i will still miss her...Kc naman for 8 years kming mag bestfriend e d kmi nghihiwalay...well maybe when were still in high school we dont value each oder that much...we have our own group...we envied each other and sometime we backbited each other...most of the time we fight...but! thing I have realized...marami akong nging frend sa high school: I have monica, Aura, Joanna and etc...But still lek is the only one who stayed...Maybe super pareho kc kmi ng ugali...sometimes we hate each other but again we will still find each other again...
I thank God na may isa akong alexis...The one who always give me tissue...The one na buntungan ko ng galit...the one na lagi kong hinahatak sa lakwatsa...

sometime I feel na iisa nlng kmi...usually...Halos pareho kmi ng damit but then d naman namin napapagusapan...ang weird! Super mamimiss ko c lek...biruin m b nmn cmula ng ngcollge ako...xa na ang kasam ko since elemntary to college kmi mgksam...san kapa...eventhough I have my frends sa college mas gusto ko pa din xa kasama I feel comfortable i feel na may taong nagmamahal sakin kpg ksama ko xa... Halos every weekend kasama ko xa...ngaun pa xa mwawala kung kailn summer...

well...That's lyf....all i know is that...masaya ako na may lek at kat kat ako...may barkda akong laging andyan para sakin...I'm proud that I have a unique brkda...na sobra d mabilis mahanap...I found one the best gift...kya treasured un sa heart ko...
Well tomorrow alis na ako papuntang camp

Guys pls pray for my grade esp...tecdra...HUHUHU!

I'm VERY VERY VERY tired...

2006-04-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hell week sobra...I'm sooo tired of art walang katapusang Floor plan, Painting, Macquette...I really want to end this term...I'm really bothered sa mga exams coz d na nga ako sanay na may exams..asar si hisart dagdag pa....Lost na ako...sa dami ng aaralin...I'm planning to stop df na...d na me attend ng mga workshops la lng nawalan na ako ng gana...Ngaun nilalagnat na ako sa sobrang pagod...Can't wait na mg saturday na...Tagaytay kmi...la lng i hope mag-enjoy ako unlike last time...well...lapit narin camp...I want to rest na babush na next tym nlng ulit...

TaNuNg TaNuNg...

2006-03-30T00:29:00.000+08:00

Q: WHAT'S YOUR MAIN RINGTONE ON YOUR PHONE?

A: Especially for you by: MYMP

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT?

A: Listened to my new CD, Prayed and Talked to Mama

Q:WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE ON YOUR CELL PHONE SAY?

A: "Ang hirap ng Report natin nakakabuwang"- Aya Raven ko

Q:WHO'S BED DID YOU SLEEP IN LAST NIGHT?

A: mine syempre

Q:WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?

A: Pink

Q:WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR UNDIES RIGHT NOW?

A: white...Chismosa!

Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS?

A.Yap..I Bought 1 pair of love birds for papa

Q: MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?

A: Troy-DVD... Close to you- Movie house

Q: NAME 3 THINGS THAT YOU HAVE ON YOU AT ALL TIMES?

A: cellphone, art materials, Bracelet that Joseph Gave me...

Q: WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEETS?

A: Red

Q: HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU RIGHT NOW?

A: ckret baka nakawan ako!hahah Joke!

Q: WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PART OF THE CHICKEN?

A: thighs

Q: I can't wait to....?

A: end this term...I can't wait to join CPMP...I can't wait for tomorrow...

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?

A: now...Ganda Nia mana sakin!

Q:What did you have for dinner LAST NIGHT?

A: Dami It's my Dad's Bday celebration yesterday...Mey Han Catering!

Q:How long have you been at your current job?

A: i dont have one im a student

Q:Look to your left. Who's there?

A: My Mom, Nagpapaganda

A: Q: When is the last time you attended church?

A: last sunday

Q: What High School did you attend:

A: Philiipines Pasay Chung Hua Academy

Q: What's the last sport you played?

A. Volleyball PE4

Q: Do you consider your self a planner or spontaneous?

A: planner soobra!

Q: Last song you heard?

A: You are the one...but LLS ako sa Glowing inside!

Q: Are you comfortable changing clothes in front of friends?

A: Yap kay lek lek and Kat lang

Q: Who is your best friend?

A: #1 - JESUS CHRIST #2-Cabz #3- Lek #4-Cesar

Q: the longest running?

A: Lahat Sila...

Q: the one you spend the most of your time with?

A:JOSEPH and my hul Barkada

Q: the one i talk to only like once a week and am still close?

A: Panda, Cabz and Cesar

Q: the only guy i can be completely honest with?

A: Cabz and Joseph

Q: only guy who knows my music addiction to its fullest?

A: Joseph songer kmi hahah!

Q: Are you a romantic?

A: D mashado...just go with flow lng ako...

Q: Who's your favorite celebrity crush?

A: Rico Yan and Sam Milby

Q: When is the last wedding you attended?

A: my kinakapatid: Christine Ong

Q: Do you consider yourself to be materialistic?

A: NOPE

Q: Describe how you're feeling now?

A: inlove...contented but worried

Q:What is the last thing/person you spent money on?

A: my Dad...My family!

Q: Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone?

A: Red blouse I wore last Saturday it's from Ache Sana

Q:What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?

A: Friendster...

Q:Do you have an air freshener in your car?

A: Wala...Hilo hilo ako...

Q:Do you have plants in your room?

A: yap...Fortune Plant that Joseph Gave me Last December...

Q:Does anything hurt on your body right now?

A: my mind...info overload na...

Q: What city was your last taxi cab ride in?

A: Pasay...kahapon pauwi with lek lek

Q: Do you own a picture phone?

A: Yap!

Q: Recent time you were really upset?

A: Every Tuesday...Every Tecdra!

mAh SuPeR DuPeR FaVoRiTe SoNg...

2006-03-30T00:12:00.000+08:00

Another day passes by, I'm dreaming of you

And though I know it might be just a dream, dreams come true

Somewhere, somehow I'll find you even though it takes all of my life (all of my life, oh)
And when I finally do (and when I finally do)

I know inside my heart (I know inside my heart)That there could be no doubt, I knew it from the start

Chorus:

(you are the one)You are the one

that I've been searching for my whole life through

(you are the one)You are the one

that I've been looking for and now that I have found you

I'll never let you go, I'll hold you in my arms

'cause you are the one

Another night spent alone and I'm lying in the dark (lying in the dark)

I don't know your name

but I know there's a voice sings to my heart (voice sings to my heart)

A sweet melody, a symphony of loveI know that come one day (I know that come one day)

A time for you and me (a time for you and me)

To finally be together,

'cause I know we're meant to be

Chorus
Forever is meaningless word even though you're here with me

Here by my side, here in my heart
Instrumental
I'll never let you go, I'll hold you in my arms
Chorus (2x)

mY tHaNk yOu DaY...

2006-03-26T17:25:00.000+08:00

My AnGeLs...

TeStEd FriEnDsHip <---tHrOugH ThE YeaRs!

OuR 7th MoNtHsaRy @ IcE BeRg

I HAVE WONDERFUL FAMILY, FRIENDS, BOYFRIEND

GOD....

ThiNgS ThAt I ShOuld Be ThAnKfuL:

D na me mashdong stress sa studies ko...Maaus naman ung Report namin Last Fri...I have completed my Idea For my Macquette and I bought everything na...And Now I'm preparing for my another report pero kaya yan! COnfident na ako ngaun coz Ginaganahan na ako
It's Papa's 6oth bday...He celebrated it yesterday inuman and everything then my another celebration xa sa tuesday...My only prob is 9pm dismissal ko sa tuesday tsk tsk...Well I'm thankful because nakita ko na soooper happy c papa...I really appreciated the care and love na binibgy ng mga frends nia saknya
Talked to Daddy Dante yesterday...Mon is Ok!
Bati na kmi ni Kat and I'm very happy that Our friendship is still strong...
I'm soo happy for Lek and Rey...I know that Love really moves in Mysterious ways
Happy yesterday coz while preparing for papa's bday...naging bonded ung family namin...Sooper bihira un noh!
Nakapgexercise ako yesterday 4x ako pabalik balik sa hp...Lakad!to the max!
I wore my Favorite blouse yesterday!
Nakipagbond ako ulit kay hao....after madaming absent nia sa lakwatsa...
Back to normal na lahat Lakwatsa ulit to the max...we went to harbor square yesterday pictorial to the max
La me mashdong work and productions kaya I really have tym for myself
Orientor uli me...
It's Our 7th monthsary na...He gave me Cookies super like KO!Happy na going strong parin!
It's hao b-day! He spent his 12am uli with me hahah! last yr dring the camp then kagabi haha
I'm Back to church knina...

Well these thing na super saya for me maybe means nothing to other people there are still things na d maganda na nngyyre sakin right now like

Ache is not here...
I still dont know kung panu ako makikisama sa mga relatives ko sa father side ko
I still feel the sadness of aya Raven

Pero kht anu pa un I'm starting to know the meaning of contentment...

Today during the worship I heard the best sermon ever...Its about "Jesus is the life"

In ur 10-20 yrs u have ur TIME, ENERGY but u dont have MONEY...

In ur 30-50 yrs. u have ur MONEY, ENERGY but u don't have TIME...

In ur 60 and up yrs. u have ur MONEY, TIME but u don't have ENERGY...

Kaya...

I just realized that In our life here on Earth wala....wala contentment....But as long u believe that God's Love for you is enough and as long na nag look forward ka dat someday makaksama m xa and U will find ur contentment sa eternal life na promise nia...then atleast u can find ur contentment somehow...

Btw...

Kanina din tinwag ung mga graduates ng Gideon Academy...Den they sang their graduation song....La lng I just realized that sooper bilis tumakbo ng time...and I'm no longer a child...then sobra na ang improve ng Gideon...God really help them...I hope na ganun din ang Chung Hua

Well...

I'm very grateful that D ko man makuha lahat ng gusto ko...My life is sooo simple yet walang gulo, I'm with my family, I feel God and I'm Happy sobrang sbrang thank you na un...well I hope that Pipol who read my blog sana kaht papano...this simple secret in life makainspire sa inyo...

nO tiMe fOr EvErYtHing nA...

2006-03-23T01:32:00.000+08:00

My Award and My New Hairstyle

Gosh...ang tagal ko d nakapag update...Sobrang Bc as in bc tlga...I have no tym for everything na sobrang lunod na ako sa "ART ART ART"...well masaya naman at thimik ang buhay ko...

YIHEEE successful naman ang play naming "THERE WILL BE NO SHOW" best play kmi and Guess wat hahaha BEST ACTRESS ako!kakagulat noh! Kht ako d ko expected d nga ako pumnta ng awards night...But of course plastic ako kpg cnbi kong d ako ntuwa... I really treat it as a sign from God ehem it's a sign of hope from God kc sobrang depress ako these past few weeks sa studies ko may absent na ko sby ang dami pang late sabay d ko magawa ng maaus ung plates ko...Soo down nga ako nung tuesday nung ayaw maniwala ni Ms. Ervite na ako gumawa ng plates ko wooosh ang skit non sbra...Sbra akong na under estimate but la na cguro lalakas pa sa power ng prayers nung pinaulit nia sakn un sa harap nia buti nagwa ko...Hay I'm afraid na mababa ang makuha ko sknya...Grade concious ako wahaha of course I'm doing all of these for my parents...

Last week sinurprise namin c aldrich sa b-day...so happy na tuwa naman xa...well I think I really found the best brkda can't ask for more na...Kaya lng ngkatmpuhan kmi ni Kat Well i know naman d mccra ang frendship nmn ng ganun nalng...but we nid to have space tlga...Last week din un ung ist week na d kmi umalis ng brkda hahah...sbrang lungkot tlga lahat kmi bc sa studies miss ko na cla...Nadepress nga ako kc nmn d ako snay na d ko ksama c jo tuwing weekends...But happee din coz nakapagchurch ako... but dnmn me nakapunta sa bday ni JASON HUHU soweee...

My Biggest problem:

MACQUETTE bohemian pa theme ko but gusto ko tlgang maging maganda un kaya kht d na ko matulog ok lng....

ANg dami dami kong namimisss.....i hope na matapos na ang term gusto ko na maglakwatsa...

Namimiss ko na aya Raven ko....namatay amah nia la tuloy ako ksama sa skul aya I hope na maging strong ka pa...Kaya m yan...Ur olweiz b my papa putoy!
Namimiss ko na ang napakasipag kong Joseph...na super din magpagod ngaun
Namimiss Ko cna cesar and esp c Cabz...

PLan sa summer?

Camp april 11-15 kuhala bay Rizal...
planning to go to Japan with my family...
Mag center for pop or mag summer job...
ORIENTOR uli ako....

Wat else...Advance happy B-day haoson...
It's 2am buti la me pasok tom...Well Guys just want to say thank you sa prayers ninyo...SEe BIg help Tlga!

ExPeCt d UnExPeCtEd...

2006-03-17T12:19:00.000+08:00

TuEsDay AgaiN

2006-03-07T10:32:00.000+08:00

I'm here again sa I-nook...7:30 ako ngcing...Hay lack of sleep na naman...Knina dumaan ako sa tecdra class ko I really felt bad coz ms. Ervite was so disappointed sa mga plates ko...I don't know nawalan na tlga ako ng gana...I know that I've done my part pero hanggng dito lng ako...Blue form ko na ung subject na un...kht na la naman akong gngwa ngaun I don't want to stress myself anymore...Ayoko na ma disappoint...but I'm so afraid na bumagsk ako...I promised myself na gagawin ko lht para macomplete ko ung pggng dean lister ko...but now Hopeless case na ako...How can I perform mamaya if masama ang loob ko...Well God help me!

I need to do my best mamayang 7pm coz manunuod cla mama and my hul brkda...I'm sooo bored and d tlga ako mapakali...Imagine sabi ni ms. I need to pass those plates sa thursday..patay na tlga ako mabuti nga pinayagan nia ko maexcuse sa class kung d bka maiyak ako sa classroom lam nio naman ako sbra kung mag sour graping...smile smile pero I texted aya raven and told him na malungkot ako hay...God bless nalng sakin...Can't wait to end this term...maybe this is really not my world...I'll try to attend my pdes2 class...watta stressful week...Dagdag pa ung report....yehey d ko makkta c pizzaro today...Katxt ko c mc henry...I really miss them tgal ko na d kita jacsm....hay...I hope sa camp makasama ko din cla...well gotta go...

Guys please Pray for me sa play and sa tecdra....It will be a big big help....thanks!

ThErE wiLL b No ShOw...

2006-03-06T13:03:00.000+08:00

Halooo...It's monday...Hay I think this will be a stressful week...Report sa pdesin3 den tecdra isometric drawing na patay sabay may hisart pa...God bless sakin...hassle pa coz like today excuse ako sa class hanggng tomorrow bcoz of There will be no show...but still its hard to catch up...D ko pa nga nagagwa ung tecdra ko imagine d tlga ako nag-aral buong weekend...sat pnta me kayla lek tambay with rey, ron and hao...chibog to d max...Den nung sunday ngturo ako sa shobe ko for her exam den wtch tv d hul day hanggng bglang pnta c joseph sa haus ko...den burn ko xa ng mga fav songs nia...after dat watch uli ako tv...hay I really dont want to stress myself anymore para kcng nasa hopeless case na ako sa tecdra repeat na ako ng midterm...wat can I do para pmasa ako sa finals e lalong mahirap db?I really dont see myself na mggng successful sa pgging prod designer...I promise myself na if d ako pmasa ng tecdra...I will really pursue kung anu tlga ung gusto ko...Gusto ko tlga maging broadcaster...Hay...Come wat may nalang...den ngaun napa aga pasok ko coz may rehearsal ako...la pa akong boses grabe lagi nlng akong paos kapag may show atlast mama stage narin ung show namin kaht ilang beses nang nacancel hahaha...

Ei guys...

Please watch "THERE WILL BE NO SHOW" tomorrow march 7, 2006 at the Augusto- Rosario theater it is a collection of plays about artists...It is an official entry to d Crossroad festival '06 kaya pls support us...Biyuda role ko dun... 1pm and 7pm ang tym ng show den 150 pesos sa outsiders and 130 pesos sa benildeans and lasallians libre bata....pls txt me for more info nlng 09193956423...

and

Sama kau sa camp ng church namin (united Evangelical church of pasay) sa april 11-15 2006 super ganda pa ng place kuhala bay....1600 ang bayad pero worth it naman...txt me nlng din oki....

bye!

48 facts about me...

2006-02-27T02:10:00.000+08:00

CaN'T sLeeP...
1.Are u photogenic?
~Minsan...
2. What time do you go to bed?
~Early na 12 am...late is 2am lyk now wahaha
3. What was the last thing you did before this?
Chat...with Peter Tan, Rey and Ron and Benito
4. Who's the one you always meet the most ?
~My Yaya...and My mom
5. Who's the person you'll call if you need help?
~Studies? -Sis and Aya Raven
~Money?-Papa
~Love life?- Cabz, Kat, Lek and Rey
6. What's on your mind right now ?
~Hapee la pasok anu gagwin ko bukas? LAKWATSA!
7. What do you prefer?american idol/malaysianidol?
~Wala...
8. With whom do you wanna be with to have fun ?
~Barkada....pitzy!!!
9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
~ Brokeback Mountain
10. When was the last time you went out ? withwho?
~ Yesterday aya benito's bday greenbelt with Jo, lek,rey,ben, aldrich
11. What do you hate the most for now ?---
~ hisfurn and Tecdra...wanna die na sa tuesday!
12. What do you do everyday besides eat &sleep?
~ Mag-aral..icpin si joseph wahaha
13. Colors that make you happy ?
~ Pink and Black
14. Most fave thing in your room?
~ Computer ko and Kikay kit
15. Miss someone?
~ I miss jo, cabz and cesar
16. Plan to buy something?
~ Gusto car...in my dreams wahahah
17. Are you satisfied with your life now?
~oo nmn A good God, family, boyfriend, friends and ok nmn ang studies ko can't ask for more
18.Do you like seafood?
~ Nope...Kaya nga parang may goiter ako eh
19.Breakfast or dinner?
~ Both...wahaha
20. like chocolates?
~ d mashado...I love cheri monde, white tobleron and ung chocolate na bnigay ni Jo so sarap!
21.Do you have a laptop?
~ sad to say wala pero gusto ko...penge naman pambili wahaha!
22. What's your favorite fast food?
~ PIZZA HUT, KFC and SHAKEYS
23. Cats or dogs?
~ wala I'm afraid sa kht anung animals...poor shirley!
24. Salty or sweet?
~ Salty kaya prone ako sa Hepatitis!
25. City or country?
~ Kahit anu!
26. Is kissing normal for your age?
~ yah i guess
27. Are you athletic?
~ Nope hikain ako!
28.favorite band for now?
~ MYMP sbra....Cueshe for ulan lng
29. Do you have your own cell phone?
~ Syempre naman noh! Cnu pa ba ang wala?
30. What do you wear to bed?
~ Short and Shirt
31. Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school?
~ Yah Sir Velasco...sooo baet!
32. Coke or pepsi?
~ C2...and Royal
34. Can you use chopsticks?
~ Trying to learn hahah
35. Do you care about getting good grades?
~ Of course, Grade concious ako noh!
36. Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
~ OO naman pasaway ako!
37. Get a job or ask your parents for money?-
~ Get a Job
38. Is your mom strict?
~ D e...Super cool nia
39. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
~ yah but I prefer na mag share sakanila...because they have the right to know what's happening to me...
40. Do your parents trust you?
~ I think sooo... Katiwatiwala naman ako
41. Would you ever wanna lose your best friends?
~ of course not...angels ko cla...
42. Does your best friend get on your nerves?
~ Cabz, mj, Cesar? never..lek minsan wahaha...
43. Do you make friends quickly?-
~ Yap...I love to make friends
44. Do you tell your mom everything?
~ yah...most of the time lng...She's always making usisa sakin...can't hide naman ako
45. What do you & your parents fight about most?
~My being makalat and My bag...
46. If u love someone & she/he rejected u. Whatwill u do to her/him?
~ Nothing...Just love urself lang...
47. Can u sing or rap?
~ Sing SING and Sing
48. If u have one wish , who would u make ur wife/husband for life?
~ Pwede bang si Sam sa dreams ung d na ko ggcng den c Joseph sa personal...

cHaNgEs...

2006-02-27T00:49:00.000+08:00

After feb 14 ang dami pang nngyre sa life ko sooo bad na d ko nalagay agad sa blog ko...I don't have time eh...well Nung feb. 17 Joseph and I watch close to you hahah ako pa! isa ako sa mga fan ng mga love story...Wala Crush ko lng sbra si sam...Imagine nasama ko c jo manuod ng ganun wahahha...

...den nung Last sat we went to tagaytay (lek, me, rey, ron and jo)...but may nngyreng msama...to the point na muntik na masira lahat..That incident really test our love for each oder..I tot that I can live without him esp without my barkda...coz during that tym I really felt alone parang empty lahat...I'm soo happy na naaus parin coz nung tuesday we tok about it...I try na babaan ung pride ko...I tot nawala ung filings ko saknya bcoz of fear...but...if u really love the person d madali na pakawalan lht eh...Thank God na naaus lahat...esp sa family ko soo glad na...Ok na ulit c jo sknila...Papa told me that he knew that I love jo kaya masaya na rin daw xa...Nakakatouch...In this life 1 thing lng narealize ko kapag may saya may lungkot...So we nid to be prepared sa lahat ng bagay and wag taung gagawa ng bagay na makaksama satin....Olweiz believe that God is there...U just nid to ask his help...Un ang dami rin kming narealized ni Jo... I realized that dapt ko nang bawasan ang katigasan ng ulo ko...And we really nid to communicate kc un ung kulng samin laging tinatago lahat ng bagay sa dibdib...Well time will tell kung anu na nxt na mangyayare bsta...just go with the flow lng...And I realized that

NO matter how i tried

NO matter how i cried

NO matter how i hate what you do

I can't still deny that I still love you so much...

Last week super akong nging bc sa rehearsal ng "There will be NO show" Nag overnyt pa mga ka df ko nung thursday...Den bglang nacancel ung show ng Friday coz holiday ewan ko kung matutuwa ako pero syempre lakwatsa day na naman we went sa bahay ni kat food trip burritos and etc saya naman...Heheh den yesterday punta greenbelt coz its benito bday and it's Our monthsary...6th months na kmi ang sweet!....redbox kmi....knta to the max...
well den ngaun d hul day stay lng haus sleep to d max den hapee hapee la pasok tom...problem ko: enlistment and elevation huhuhu....

saya coz nakachat koc peter tan- he's my closest friend back in highschool e bglang nglaho kaya super saya ako na ngparamdam uli sakin!

Guys, pls watch "THERE WILL BE NO SHOW" March 1, 2006 Biyuda role ko dun wahaha sa DLSU-main William shaw little theater...150 for outsiders and 130 for benildean and lasallian...libre bata...Guys pls support us..It's an official entry sa Crossroads festival '06

thanks!

my FeB. 14, 2006

2006-02-16T00:10:00.000+08:00

For 3 consecutive years I spent my Valentines day with my someone special but know wat super iba tong year na to...This is the only valentines day na na feel ko na valentine...Maybe this is really the first na mainlove ako...

Tuesday khpon I feel bad ko 9am to 9pm ako sa skul...Joseph asked me to go out pero I know na super gabi na and besides may exam siya...so I spent my hul day with alexis and aya raven...nung morning masama loob ko coz i'm so desperate na matapos ung tecdra but then hopeless case na tlga ako...but syempre my lek lek comes to the rescue haha! Eventhough iniisip kona d ko makaksma c jo that day...It's ok...Corny man but our theme song really applies "Each day with you becomes a valentine"

Then mga 530 mdyo nararamdaman ko na ang pagkalungkot becoz of hisfurn Alexis need to go home when Joseph texted me "Shirl, r u with lek...alis cla ni rey cu l8r!" nkakagulat but then hinayaan ko na...hanggng bglang nagpa early dismissal c pizzaro...den cnundo nila ako...

So glad to see the other side of joseph na super sweet...like last sat. when pinabigay niya sa guard ung ccokies na hart sa starbucks with my name...then yesterday he gave me a box of chocolate na maraming petals with card na pinaghirapan nia...

Sooo touch...but at the same time I feel guilty...I always think that he doesn't love me...That napipilitan lang xa...that he does'nt care...That d na dadating ung tym na mamahalin nia ko...
but Last tuesday...naka misunderstanding kmi...Napakasensitive ko kc....

"Naiinis ako sa sarili ko kung bkit naapektuhan ako ng sbra kung di kita mahal matagal na akong wala" this are the words that really open my mind and heart na he's not what I think...

Yesterday when I open my gifts speechless ako...can't imagine that the Guy I love the most will make me feel so special that night...Of course, all my life I always love someone who doesn't Love me back...and this is the first time...

This is MY BEST VALENTINES DAY because I found my FOREVER....

and I will do everything to make it

FOREVER...

HiS pOeM...

2006-02-16T00:03:00.000+08:00

Here are words never meant to be written

Feelings kept hidden inside my soul

Secrets trapped within my heart.

I sit here pondering my thoughts

And my thoughts lead to you,

Reminiscing the times that pass

Regretting the words never spoken

The feelings never revealed

To tell you how I truly feel

What you really mean to me.

Now you occupy my thoughts

Bringing pain to my heart.

You mean more to me than words can express

Without you my life would be incomplete

The thought of losing you

But...I cannot lose someone that I never truly had.

To me, you were more than life itself

Not one moment passed

Without the thought of you in my mind.

I give myself to you

You alone hold the key into my heart

I hide nothing from you.

I reveal my deepest secret

My dreams and my hopes

My fears and my regrets.

To hold you in my arms

Is what I long to do.

To call you mine Is all I ask, nothing more.

I know that my one wish

Will never be granted.

So I relish the memory of you,

Reminiscing the times that has passed

-MARK JAME...

~ sobrang tagal ko na din d nag internet coz nagloko pc ko...knina when I open my friendster i saw this poem from Mark Jame...Don't know what he mean but still he makes me feel special again...Nakakamiss xa...

dEaTh...

2006-02-06T11:16:00.000+08:00

Last fri...may namatay sa mc do taft I don't know the real story but I saw the picture of a man na super duguan sa cellphone ni bryce...kakatakot...den nung saturday i heard the news from Alexis...at first d ako naniniwala...poor Filipinos...tsktsk...ewan ko ba kung bkt ganun of course only God knows the answer...Den d ako mashado nanuod ng tv coz umalis kmi ng brkda nung sat. we went to the fort...masaya...but then nakaka guilty na kmi ngsasaya while alm nmn na ang daming nghhrap...Den yesterday..ist sunday of the month ang aga ko sa church for the ist tym...heheh...den after dat bonding with panda and kat den uwe na ko coz i nid to prepare for my report today...den nanuod muna ako ng tv wen i saw those pipol who were crying nakakaiyak well mababaw lng nmn tlga luha ko...nakakalungkot tlga...and i realized that sa isang pitik lng pwede nang maglaho ang lahat...But i believe God knows what he is doing...maybe he want to end the suffering of those people...Maybe he want to tell us na wag mashadong maniwala sa luck we should believe in blessings...well andyan na yan what can we do...we should live our lives according to his will...well un I'm so thankful parin na super safe ng family ko...masaya ako...maaus ang lhat...but only God knows nga what will happen next..so I just need to trust in him nlng coz i know he will never leave nor forsake those people who love him...
I just want to...congratulate my aya jun and ache marissa for bringing johnson jr...hahah...last feb 2 same day ng bday ng ache ko...may baby boy na kmi....!

Pipol kUnG hEi Fat cHoi!

2006-01-30T12:59:00.000+08:00

Last thursday after my surprise kay joseph i went to student center..kinausap ako ni aya ans...ang daming niang sinabi skin ang dami ko rin narealize...I'm starting to be blind ng mga bagay na nagppasaya sakin...I starting to forget kung anu dapat ang mga priorities ko...pero u know wat yesterday bumalik na ako sa church...Cguro nga nakalimot na ako...pero alm m ung filing na kht nakalimot ka tatanggapin ka prin kpag bumalik ka...God is really Good...d nia akong hinyaan na mawala he used people para ipaalala sakin un...Kc noon I always thought na God will understand me lagi akong ganon to the point na nakkagawa na ako ng bagay na d na tama still ganun parin iniisip ko...well sobrang thankful ako sa lyf ko ngaun i have wonderful friends...yesterday din aftr church I'm with leslie and her family...eat kami sa gerry's grill wat a nice feeling na ung mga tao na ni minsan d m maiicp na maksama m e nakasama m...knowing na lagi akong nasasaktan dhil sa knila nung bata ako...Forgiveness lng pla katapat ng lahat...I hope na mging ok narin cla ng family ko...den new year kagabi eat kmi emerald haha pulang pula paligid ko wahahah..well ok nmn ung day...kht na stress ako sa kakaturo kay arianne...well un lng nmn ang buhay ko simple pero ok nmn pero I believe that there's no such thing as swerte o malas kapag depende lng nmn un sa papaniwalaan m db? Dont know bkt ganun ang majority sa mga chinese ang hilig maniwala sa ganon pero napakadali lng nmn as long as u have God...and as long na appreciate m lahat ng blessings nia un ung swerte kc ang mga tao mas binibgyan pa nila ng pansin ang mga bagay na kungsan cla malas they dont realize na marami na clang meron...well nasa davao na si papa sana mg enjoy xa dun...Malapit na camp...ang wish ko sana makasama ko brkda ko dun...c cabz din...den after daw ako mag camp mag europe dw kmi nila leslie sosyal hhaha...pero parang ayw ko sumama mas masarap d2!opinion ko lng nmn un kht tanga na ang dating ko noh! Un lng nmn papasok pa ako sa pdes ko hahah nung oras na! kakatamad kc e! Den mamaya japayuki rehearsal na ang naive ng dating ng character ko wait naive b tlga dating ko wahaha cge na bye!

I'm Happy

2006-01-26T00:17:00.000+08:00

~Almost 2 days kming bonding ni Lek pizza hut to the max hahah...I love lek sobra! She's more than a sister to me...

~C kat din bonding kmi hahah...I rily wish na mging masaya xa ng sbra...

~Natuto na akong mgpainting haha!

~Bago na group mates ko sa pdesin

~Joseph is soooo sweet kakatuwa...I got lot of testi...sweet messages heheh!

~Talk to Jonard hahha miss ko na xa...may gf na xa....kakatuwa binata na ang mga shoti ko...

~Saw roan yesterday

~Ganda role ko sa Japayuki I'm Ms. hope!

~Got new friends Lalyn our sm she's so nice!

~I learn many jokes! hahaha

~Saw Cabz yesterday nakipagchikahan ako....

~AND 5th month na namin ni jo....hahah breaking the record na...

But...I feel bad nga lng na Joey is not oki...Joe joe if u read my blog jus want u to know that I'm always hir for u no matter wat...I don't know kung anu ggwin ko para mging ok ka...Para U rily need to b strong...pray and I know that God will answer ur prayer...WAG M CCRAIN sarili m pls...A simple "I love you" from me sana makagaan sa filings m....Nand2 pa kming lht kaya b strong....

CoNtiNuAtion...

2006-01-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

putol last entry ko well ang daming nngyre sa life ko...before ako mag los banos bday ni katrina that's why sinurprise namin xa we bought cake tpos dinala nmn sa haus nia...Tapos kinabukasan Nag laguna na ako..hahaha small world kc ung special sme1 ni eunice friend pala ni Jo kakatuwa heheh well mdyo malungkot sa los banos...kakastress panay work and nakkamiss manila hahah
fri...pnta na kmi dun mga 1am aus na ist location up to 5 am den natulog gcng 7am db kakastress ang hirap tpos ang daming trabaho den mga 4pm kmi lng ni eu pnta next location buhat lht ng maleta jeep lng kmi...adventure tpos aus namin location for 3 hrs pagdating ng direk mali pala location kkaloka iyak tlga ako pero ang bait ni luis alandy unlike john lapus grrr...den d 3rd day super excited na ako uwe hahah pero super bgsak tlga katawan ko masaya pero kakabaliw sa pagod...nung monday report ko sa pdes mabuti natuwa c pineda hahah tpus un nga surprise ako ni Joseph ang sweet hahah! Namiss nia ako...den un nung Fri...pnta kmi jo Star city 2 lng kmi date haha...sooo happy na ok na super ung relationship nmn kaya lng mdyo sblay na kay papa...hahah den yesterday hul day with my brkda pnta sa haus ni lek den sa church ni kmbal and sa market market den hatid na ako ni joseph...baet baet...sana lgi kmng ok....knina d me ngcng sa church tsk tsk...now kaya lng me net bcoz of grrrrr....masyadong hassle! Sana d ko nlng xa kagrup kala m kung cnu! pnta me emerald bday ni Amah 95 na xa astig...hehehe cge gotta go

mY LoS BaNos tRip...

2006-01-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

After 2 days of suffering because of art..I'm back...Wat an experience talaga...eventhough 2 days lang ako nawala filing ko 1 week super kakapagod ang buhay ng isang production designer...Kailngn 24 hrs. kang dilat...umiikot parin ang paningin ko pero tuloy parin ang buhay work kung work haha...well masaya at panget ang experience ko sa bwisit na lambanog na yan ang laki tuloy ng eyebag ko!
Fri- haha wat a small world...tapos biglang pumasok si joseph sa kwarto ko.. as in ngayon ngayon lang!!!haahah next tym nalang he's here

bEiNg a BeNiLdEaN...

2006-01-11T00:06:00.000+08:00

3rd term na...I thought na immune na ko sa mga majors ko...pero pahirap na ng pahirap..I'm happy coz may mga times na la akong pasok and late na class ko so may enough sleep ako...pero parang pagod parin ako...I have lots of responsibilities...being an orientor, asst. prod designer of sir herras digital film, den malapit na Crossroads...and my co-actors are inviting me to join Uyayi ng ulan na re stage sa ccp... Thank God na medyo mababait ang prof but ung subjects mismo ung mhrap but then d nmn ako assured sa future ko...Every monday sa pdesin3-costume design prof ko si mr. Eric Pineda a well-known designer...Bigatin db pero u know wat nakakadiscourage mga cnbi nia na 2 or 3 lang ang mggng prod designer samin...well I know that's true...I'm starting to question myself kung tama ba pinapsok k...well ngeenjoy na ko...pero anung mapapala ko?...Bahla na c batman...Well this past few months bgla nalang nwala ung gana ko sa theatr pati sa pag oorient absent ako ng absent...cguro dhil d ko na mahati oras ko i need to sacrifice ganun naman kapag tumatanda na and pabigat na ng pabigat susuko ka din...Panay absent na ko sa acting workshops hay...but ok lng...I'll try to come back...D ko dpt sumuko db kaya tom mag audition ako for ccp...well un hahah pero enjoy nmn ang life ko...panay gimmick with barkda...so lucky to have them tlga...nung friday...they thought na punta na me los banos so pnta cla sa bahay den namasyal kmi sa harbor square so sweet db esp. joseph sooo happy na Lagi na kmi mgksama...God really answered my prayers...happy na kasma nmen c roan...Hahah drive drive me sa bluwave...den nung sat...Punta nmn kmi kay alexis miss na namin xa..la xa ksama sa haus..luto cla kambal for us...Watta friend db...filing nmn nsa Pinoy big brother kmi...den nung sunday church w/ drich and hao...den cnamahan ko c jo mag supermarket...den yesterday watch kmi ni Jo ng dont give up...panget ng movie sobra!yan umiiral na ang taste ng future film maker hahah! Dis week tuloy na ata ung Los banos ko may report pa ko patay na ko! sana makasama ko pa cla esp. Jo...Kapg kasama ko cla I feel that I'm so blessed by God I feel na may mga angels ako...It's kat bday on thursday...Happy Birthday! Wat else hay kakapressure d hul day buti nlng d na c fajardo prof sa tecdra!D marunong magturo! Un lng....9am -9 pm lng nmn ako sa skul nag-aaral...hay pahirap! buti nlng ksama ko c aya raven laugh trip at the same time!..The end na bye!

InLoVe?...

2006-01-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

Thirteen Signs You are Falling In Love...

13.
When you’re on the phone with them late at night and they hang up but you miss them already when it was just two minutes ago…

12.
You read their texts over and over again…

11.
You walk really slow when you're with them...

10.
You feel shy whenever you're with them...

9.
When you think about them, your heart beats faster and faster...

8.
You smile when you hear their voice...

7.
When you look at them, you can't see the other people around you... all you see is him/her...

6.
You start listening to slow songs, while thinking of them...

5.
They become ALL you think about...

4.
You get high just from their scent...

3.
You realize that you're always smiling to yourself when you think about them...

2.
You would do anything for them...

1.
While reading this, there was one person on your mind the whole time.....

hmmm....

NoN-StOp GiMMickS...

2006-01-07T10:42:00.000+08:00

New hairstyle ako hahah...kc nung thurs wala me class...den kahapon hisart3 subject ko wahaha d c manolet prof ko pero super daldal nung bagong prof pero mukang matalino...pahirap din feeling ko after dat bonding knti with college barkada den punta chung hua coz dapat makipagkita ako pero d na xa nakapunta den i find out na eto palang brkda k0 e balak akong bglaan na dalawin sa haus coz akala nmn tuloy ako sa los banos dis week e nacancel e nxt week nlng den un pmnta kmi harbor square and bluwave drive trip kmi hahah...i need more practice pa sabi ni jo...un saya filing ko bakasyn parin...kaya lng d ksama ang aking magandang bestpren na c lek ang dmi na nia absent....well mamaya babawi kmi...We love u lek hahaha....Den ngaun dpt mag orient ako e baka kc d matapos ng 12 un patay ako kaya d na ko pumunta...un...sana masaya ulit mamaya....

AfTer...

2006-01-04T12:53:00.000+08:00

Update ko lng kau sa nngyare sakin sa miting sa up...Nakita ko ung mga artista like john Lapus well un almost 3 hrs. din ung miting pero d ko na tinapos layo pa uwian ko noh....
Nung
Dec. 29-tinuruan ako ni jo magdrive sa bluwave haha... with kambal den un gala gala...Try ung paputok nila kmbl saya nmn
Dec. 30- Tulong Joseph gawa course paper nia almost 8 hrs din un noh...hahah tagal nmn mgksama...kasama rin kat and ron...hahah one page lng natapos
Dec. 31- watch ako legal wife with jo and aldrich sa rp...ganda ung movie kakatuwa..den nakatulog ako hul day nagising nlng nung malapit na 12 masaya nmn dami kc na tao d2 db...
Jan. 1- punta bahay ni sir manolet medyo panget ng new year ko kc madaming badtrip pero ok lng...
Jan. 2-punta ulit kayla jo help xa gawa paper...andun na aldrich, rey, ron and kat after dat pnta kmi bluwave food trip heheh saya!
Jan. 3- pnta sm san lazaro with jo and aldrich...den after pnta kayla jo tinapos ung paper hatid na nia me pauwe pero kinuha muna nmn giftni mj sakin...Kambl ni Clowie ni mj hahah...thanks!
Un....Tpos na ang vacation ngaun 1pm na 230 class ko tinatamad ako wahahah!Grrrr...Back to work na!!!!

MaY StUdEnT PeRmiT na aKuh!

2005-12-28T14:45:00.000+08:00

At last may permit na din ako thanks sa aya ko yiheee....Kaya lng parang naforget ko na mg drive wahah...well maya pnta me sa UP diliman for miting ng lambanog...ahh Gusto ko mag star city isip bata pa ako noh! well hirap akong i upload ung mga pics nung reunion huhuhu grabe ang dami kc....hay....antok pa ko...maya may party din sa porviner....Sarap ng sisig and chicharon...pataba while bakasyon hahah...!

ThE rEuNiOn...BaTcH 2k4

2005-12-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Wow ang saya super makita ung mga kabatch ko...Dami nang nagbago..I'm happy na nkita ko c Cesar... It's nice to know na malayo na rin ung mga nararating ng mga kabatch ko like sandara...d b big time hahah thanks sa treat heheh!...Sana every year meron...Ung mga taong d ko kasundo dti heheh nakakausap ko na...sooo happy...
Well kahapon cnundo ako ni Haoson sa haus soo d ako nalate heheh...den un mit kmi sa chung hua lahat..den pnta sa gerry's grill makati todo pic post ko d2 un kapag nalipat ko na hehe...den after dat...bonding with boyfren den punta sa io kantahan to do the max den uwe na...pero super enjoy tlga...den knina stay lang hul day...todo ice cream ako hahah... pnta din knina c jo d2 hehehe... Gusto ko pa ng mahabng vacation....lakwatsa pa kulang pa hahah! mis ko na lahat ng d ngpapakita sakin!
soundtrip....

mY oNLy MisTake

2005-12-26T16:04:00.000+08:00

is to love you with all my heart....now I'm lost

mErrY ChristMas...

2005-12-26T15:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm tagal ko na d post well nothing happened naman just got my course card 3.1 something ako atleast dl parin...It's unfair but it's ok parin...Well My christmas...Ok lng...this is my first christmas without achie...But with mj...D ako masaya but D rin ako malungkot...ngaun lng uli ako cnpag e I just want to release all my feelings monthsary namin khapon and it's christmas wat happened? wala....Now pupuunta me mamaya sa reunion ng batch...i hope na maging ok lahat

mY RiNg BiNd Day...

2005-12-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hay...at last nagawa ko din ung isometric drawing ko...with the help of ate ryanne...Ache is really lucky to have her as her bestfriend sooo bait...I'm starting to love her na hahah....Almost 3am na kmi natulog chikahan to the max..well ate thanks for the advices...Kaya late ako sa class ko knina hahha...Den un kumain kmi nila aya rave sa tattles sarap...Den after dat the hul day ako namublema kung san ako mgpaparing bind...Kasama ko c Jed haha nakarating kmi ng espana...den nkita namin si joe joe din...Obssessed na tau sa tecdra haha yuck! atleast tapos na...pero cra din mga plano ko...kala ko mgkikita kmi ni mark jame ngaun...sorry mj...bc lang talaga ako but babawi ako until bgo ka umuwi...we will cherish every second na nasa philippines ka...I'm sooo happy that di mo ko forget I feel so special thanks...Sana di ka na umalis...I wil mis our kulitan and everything...But don't worry Bestfriends will always be bestfriends...Lav na lav kita promise kht iniiwan mo ko! hahha...Un d hul day katext ko c mj...Bumabawi xa sa lahat kaya super touch ako...Btw sa sat christmas party kayla lek...If mabasa ng brkada blog ko sana pnta kau..mis ko na kau... wat else? D ko pa tpos script and macquette 2 pa...tapos na pghihirap ko...I'm not expecting high grade mukhang malabo...well That's it skit ulo ko 3hrs sa jeep ang traffic..Wla sa states nian hhahah!

I'm Sooo ToUcH

2005-12-13T11:41:00.000+08:00

super tagal ko na d nagpost coz super busy ako sa exhibit for hisart...Nothing new nmn super career tlga ako hahah...Well...May kwento ako...Nung sunday habang I'm with panda sa haus...someone called me...guess wat..It's mark jame...My bestfriend nung Grade 4...nangpunta sa states wow can't believe na d nia ko naforget...Den un txtmate kmi and den yesterday pinunthn ko xa...wow laki na nga ng pingbago ng lahat...But I'm so happy that our friendship never change...Of course mahirap makirelate sknya coz...nakuha na nia ung culture sa states...pero it doesn't matter...La lang...I'm happy....Grabe takot na ako sa finals... especially tecdra huhu! Lapit na Christmas I hope maging happy lahat...Wow finally lek lek read my blog na rin hahah...Well...Babalik na c mj sa states sa jan 2...iwan na naman nia ko....hahah...Well Maya maya pasok na ko...

A nYt w/ My CoLLeGe BaRkAdA...

2005-12-04T17:08:00.000+08:00

Art is starting to be a VERY big part of my life...I used to hate it but what can I do...I'm always forced to do things that I don't want to because i don't know what I want I always tell myself "bhala na c batman" but I'm not the type of person who wouldn't give importance to the responsibilities that was given to me..that's why kht papano...Ntututo ako...Wow marunong na ko mgdraw and i'm starting to love art...Last Tuesday I had meeting with sir paolo he chosen me to be an asst. production designer of his digital film starring Alessandra de Rossi, Alfred vargas and John lapus...Big time heheh On Jan. 3 weeks akong nasa quezon province for the shooting...Well Don't know if kaya ko again Bhala na c batman!
Lapit na Finals super tambak kmi ng Projects
INTROFILM: script and storyboard
PDESIN: Production book and Macquette for Glass menagerie
HISART: Roccoco macquette, avp, mtv, % rendered drawings, report
TECDRA: Isometric drawing and all the plates..I REALLY HATE THIS SUBJECT MAMATAY AKO GRABE!
Ang hirap...Kaya nung friday ngovernyt sa haus ko mga college friends ko but still d parin tpos ang macquette...Being an Artist isn't easy people always expect na stand out palagi ang gawa m!
Well masaya ung overnyt...Laugh trip, chibugan
Den yesterday red box with Josep, alexis and benito well enjoy nmn but still d pain mabalik ung dati...I'm starting to be immuned sa lahat ng nngyyre...I starting to be stone!

WhY dO i sTiLL LoVe U?

2005-11-28T11:33:00.000+08:00

It is true na if ur always happy...there will come a tym na sooper ka ma sasad... Don't know wat I'm feeling ryt now...Do u know da feeling na...ayw munang mahalin ung tao...Ur mind keep telling u to stop it but then...Ur heart will always tell u to forgive, to trust and to love... D b Nakakapagod un... I don't know kung anu ang paniniwalaan ko...I was betrayed...But I don't want to lose him...Ryt now I'm asking myself...Why do I stil love him after all na sooper nia kong cnktan...sana mging stone ang hart ko so that I can't feel the pain...I'm tired of trusting him...But wat can I do...I need to trust him...I need to forgive him...Bhala na c God saknya...

HaPi 3rD mOnThSarY

2005-11-25T11:16:00.000+08:00

Wow 3 months na kmi ni Jo...can't imagine na ok pa rin kmi...Yesterday I'm with Cabz and joseph being with the most important guys in my life really makes my day so special...I miss cabz...After niya ko indianin sa debut ko...but can't deny that d mababaw ang frendship nmn he's my bestest friend...Honestly Everytym I'm with him I'm very very happy I feel safe...he's the only person na nakakapagbgy sakin ng best advices maybe bcoz lagi nia kong kinakmpihan...spoiled ako dun e... Dinala nia me sa store nila sa palengke...masaya...den we ate sa greenwich kwentuhan to da max...He again nag at me...kaya nga he's my tatay Cabz...Den after dat dumting c Jo...I miss those days nung hs na lgi kming tatlo ung mgkasama..but then dmi na tlga ngbgo...Mdyo d cla nguusap...Ngkakahiyaan heheh... After dat...Joseph gave me a letter...At least d nia nakalimtan monthsary nmn...kinilig ako hahah...The sad part is d ko xa makaksama today coz hngng nyt class nia...well It's ok... Den after dat hinatid me ni Cabz...Watch kmi ng video ng debut ko...This is the first tym na cnbi ni Cabz na bagay kmi ng boyfrend ko...Hmm lagi nmn nia kc ako kinokntra...I'm happy coz approved xa kay jo...He told me na alagaan ko hart ko coz he knew that I love joseph so much...den after dat...uwe na xa... Watch lng me d hul nyt ng tv...I hope may nxt tym pa....

ThE ImPoRtAnCe Of bEinG EarNest...

2005-11-20T20:36:00.000+08:00

*Sigh* As of now I really want to rest...super stress na ko...I'm worried about everything...I love my job I'm happy na bngyan ako ni ms. ng responsibility na ganun eventhough mahirap...I'm enjoying it...ngging bonded ang block nmn...Konting tiis nlng at matatapos na toH!...well watta stressful week...buong week may rehearsal...super l8 na nmn me uwe huhu! Buti nlng nung Fri...harry potter's day...me, jo and aldrich nuod kmi sa rp almost 2am na kmi nakauwe...Hehe..the bad thing sa sbrang pagod nakatulog ako...Den kumain kmi sa wendy's enjoy me kht 3 lng kmi ntnggl nmn ung stress ko...yesterday buong day me nsa csb..ayos ng ganun ng ganyan buti nlng at andyan c aya raven...Almost 11 na rin me nkauwe...Den knina... church lng...den stay lng sa haus bored na nga ko...Buti pa c jo pa party party nlng heheh...Nothing happen nmn na bago...everything is ok parin kakapagod but my heart isn't empty and dat's wat important to meee...well Tom mon work n naman!!!...AYYY dumating na ung mga video ko nung debut I'm sooo excited na....

BeCaUsE I'm A gUrL...

2005-11-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

My day was full of pain...Literal na pain...Now ko lng na experience na sbrang sumkit ung puson ko ng sbra sbra na parang hihimatyin ako sa skit...As usual introfilm clas knina watch lng ng movie hay magandang ung movie Young Frankenstein comedy but di ko naenjoy coz ang sma ng pkirmdm ko plus super lamig sa class...I want to shout pero nakakahiya after noninayos ko knti ung mga ek ek sa play bdtrip coz wla man lng tumulong skin...So i decided to eat shawarma rice para sumya ko...but 4 d ist tym d ako ngenjoy den bglang dmtng c aya vincent..wow namiss ko un noh! kya lng d ako nkipgkulitan coz d ko na kaya noh! ang sakit...after dat nagpnta me ulit sa booth then nakasalubng nmn c aya ben wow sarap ng filing kapag may mga aya ka..I'm so lucky na may mga aya akong tuld nila...I feel safe..ehhe Well I pray that they will soon find their own happiness..Den un chika chika with them...hanggng dmting na cla mama...pnta kmi doc ni ache sana kwnto kwnto about our kaweirdhn...Den after dat pnta na metropolitan...Ang tagal nmng ng wait grr I hate WAITING esp kapag meron ako wala tlga akng patience noh...den nung nasa clinic na kmi...sabi nung doc need ioperate c sana...so i thought ako din...e sbi kapag may goiter e maliki possibility d ako magkaank samday huhu LAGOT den un meron nga me goiter!pero d ngconfirm ganu ung dctor its becoz of my hormone ek ek!GRR ang hirap mggng babae db! But ayoko magpa opera ayaw!ikkmamatay ko un!...Takot ako...!!!tom mag papakuha me blood and ultrasound haha kala lng nila..papayag ako...!Takot tlga ko noH! well Dhil sa bwisit na nngyyre sakin...d ko nakausp c joseph d ko na tlga kaya e ayoko mgalala xa esp alm kong pagod un...but I miss and love him to death...sbra...Un Grabe...Bhala na c God....

aFtEr bEiNg BuSy...

2005-11-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

Mis ko na blog ko tgl na nmn me d net super bc kc...D hul week rehearsal ng "Importance of Being Ernest" now ko lng na realized na super hirap mging stage manager I understand kung bkit ganun ktaray ang mga sm ng df heheh E isipin m Stage manager, production manager and Asst. Director pa kmi ni Jed kakaloka...Tpos super pasaway ung ibng actors lapit na nga show e d pa natakot! well un nung fri kuha dpt mw license but then chinese citizen ako kya ngkaconflict na naman! Fri was a long day for me ang dami tlga responsibility na nakasabit sakin to the point na d n ko kumain mabuti at nakiusap si jed na pahinga kmi ng Sat well of course super natuwa ako...coz It's lkwatsa time again hahah Pero la ako mayaya except joseph e I want to watched sassy girl kya dinalan nlng nia me ng dvd how sweet! den un nuod kmi kwentuhan aftr dt alis na xa den me as usual watch tv slip den knina ng church me at last d na din ako tinamaan ng katamarn! den now tinapos ko lng assignment sa introfilm..I want to go out gusto ko mglkwatsa bdtrip cla mama iniwan ako! la me kasama umalis huhu! well un lng ang kwento...I'm happy nmn...I hope it last...

Guys watch "Importance of being Ernest" by Oscar Wilde it's an ala victorian style na play kakaiba! Of course Asst. Director ako dun...50 pesos entrance fee...Nov. 22-23 3pm and 6pm at the auditorium of CSB.... txt me for more info 09193956423
Ei look at this pic...Super gusto ko xa...

my Ek DaY...

2005-11-04T22:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I'm with my df friends: Jio, rox, vince, jed, lex, joris, joshua and dale...Well this is my first tym na makasama cla sa gnitong gimik...Well I just give myself a break well I realized na I need to be fair sa mga friends ko...Lyk dapat sumama dn me sa ibng friends ko coz it's gud to have many friends...Well I cant say na super enjoy kmi sa ek coz nagrain and we strting to find it boring and corny...Besides I'm just starting to close to them except jio, rox and jed coz they were my best buds in Csb...So mdyo hirap pa akong mgadjust but I'm enjoying their company eventhough minsan hirap akong makarel8...I went home mga 10 na...hahah sayang coz we rode Anchors away and Ferris wheel wow I'm starting to overcome my fear sa height...hehehe well Bka nxt tym Space shuttle na hahha...Then ng paint ball kmi hmmm ang bad pla nung game na un ang sakit dti atat akong mglaro nun bt den ngkpasa ako...It was nice nakabonding ko cla coz ngging flexible ako sa ugali ng diff tao...Tom naman ung brkada was planning na mglakwatsa tom d hul day...Coz la nga nmn kmi npuntahan nitong vacation...I miss them na...Just want to say thnks sa mga ek pepz...Heheheh! nxt tym uli heheh...And happy monthsary jio and rox if d dhil sa inyo la ek hahha! ang sweet!

DeDiCatEd tO mY BeStFriEndS

2005-11-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

YOU FIRST BELIEVE by Hoku
How many times did i pray you've found me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing often to the dark
Dreaming i'd see your face

Safe in home unafraid
Captured in your embrace

So many times when my heart was broken
Visions of you would keep me strong
You are with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that i am
And i'll nver forget

Chorus
It was you
Who first believe
And all that i was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand And showed me life
And i've never been the same
Since you first believe

There were times

When i thought i'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seem
Placing your hand in you
could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart

(repeat chorus)Hoh......hoh...hohh.....(chorus)
How many times did i pray you've found me
How many wishes on a star

I miss Cesar and Cabz...I really miss those days na lagi ko kaung kasama...The two of you really bring happiness to my life...I dedicate this song sa bestfriends ko Cabz, Cesar and Alexis. This song really fit sa inyo hhaa esp. Cabz...I really miss you... Wonder why I have many bestfriends because God sent me many angels because he knew that i will really need it...And I am blessed that he gave me the best....

UnDaS 2005

2005-11-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

Heheh Got mail from joseph...hahah ngaun dw but dont know wat tym well..I got lot of thing to think about grrr...dont know wat to do with my studies...i'm sick and tired of my course....Yesterday I went to Mc do taft with my shobe kailngn ko mkipgkita sa pdes prof ko for my midterm kc db nakablufrm ako den now ko lng nbsa mail nia gosh ang hirap ng pinhhnp nia research dw on machine ek ek...hay...Isa pa yang tecdra thank God aya raven will help me tom...hay...Well galing me knina sa cemetery well D naman kakapagod unlyk the previous years na super nakkapnghina...D sumama leslie badtrip yestrday nagkain kmi sa emerald with my father side relatives well it was nice na masaya nmn kming lht sa bahay...being with achi sana's family nalelessen yung pagkamiss ko sa sis ko...well un lng...slip d hul day...watch dubai with papa sa tv and guess wat hahaha nakatulog na naman ako Antukin tlga!

5+10=14

2005-10-30T19:45:00.000+08:00

Congratulations! Guys I will miss u ol....Till the next production....Dulaang Filipino Rockz!

To Jed: Thanks for being my best bud in Csb.... D na ko sny na d kita kasama hahah Miss na kita....Thanks for everything....Shawarma Rice forever haha!Un Un e!

To Barbie: Thanks for being good to me hahah....Remember those tyms na pingbbgyan m ako...I'm so lucky na ikw ang ka alternate ko....Continue to be a good actress...hope na mging close pa tau...

To Nicole: thanks sa compli and pag tis ng hair ko grrr hahaha...Thanks sa mga tulong mo samin...

To Rox: Sawa na ko sayo haha jke Just wnt to say I loveu rox! Just want u to b happy

To jio: Magpagaling ka tigilan na ang pakabahin kami ayt...thanks for being a gud friend

To Dale: I will miss u...Thanks for everything...

To Sjon: Sorry sa mga sapok ko hahaha well It was nice na ikw ang ka scene ko...

To Joriz: Thanks for being a sweet friend...

To Joyz: Thanks for being one of my truest friend sa df...Go Judai!

and to the rest alang naman isa isahin ko pa kau...Thanks uli...Evnthough d me sumasama sa mga lakwatsa lav ko kaung laht..

WoRk To FoRgEt...

2005-10-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

hmm super pagod ako dis hul week...Play: 5+10=14 den asst director me sa Importance of being earnest...may video shoot ako sa mma video...tutor sa mga shobe ko...hay.....

Oct 22.... Pnta brkda d2 kanya knyang luto hahah Gumawa c Jo ng macaroni la lng hehe kakatuwa but Sa sbrang pagod ko ntulog ako habang nuod cla ng dvd den after dat ntira cla kmbl well I'm happy na andyan cla coz I know that I have someone to turn to...

Oct 24...Hmmm Gawa me tecdrasuper asikso lahat ng reservation for the play

Oct 25...2nd Monthsary namin! 1st day din ni shobe s chung hua ako hatid den after dat Pnta kmi ni jo sa ue den eat kami sa mister kabal haha ngging shawarma addict na kmi!d hul day ksama ko xa with rey and lek...I'm happy at the same time nalulungkot coz aalis na c jo...c rey naghatd sakn pauwe well rey thanks for being with me always...

Oct 26...old routine play uli but super plpk ko sa stge arggg....Todo bonding with jed and df pips hehe

Oct 27... Super pangit ng performances namin that's why super naparusahan kmi ni sir george

Oct 28...Last day na...Cast party kyla dale nalasing ako hahah...Bonding with kuya oj and old members hehe....

Oct 29 nagkaskit na me but still need to attend rehearsal...kht my hang over pa ko haha! den uwe me ng maaga slip lng after dat tutor sa mga bata d na me umatend sa halloween party....Pnta rey d2 haha sinurprise ako....

Oct 30...Now stay lng haus...net...

Well this week is full achievement but still i feel empty....I'm trying to convince myself na d ko x nmimiss but I miss him to death....I want to work para bilis takbo oras...This is the ist weekend na d ko xa kasama....

CiNeMa PaRaDiSo

2005-10-30T18:48:00.000+08:00

Last Monday pinapanuod smin ni Ms. Alfon tong Cinema Paradiso a french film for our intfilm subject well this movie really touches my heart... and i've realized something:

"Once...a king gave a feast for the loveliest princesses in the realm. Now, a soldier who was standing guard saw the king's daughter go by. She was the most beautiful of all and he fell instantly in love.But what is a simple soldier next to the daughter of a king? At last he succeeded in meeting her, and he told her he could no longer live without her. The princess was so taken by the depth of his feeling that she said to the soldier, "If you can wait for 100 days and 100 nights under my balcony, at the end of it I shall be yours." With that the soldier went and waited one day... two days... then ten... then twenty. Each evening the princess looked out, and he never moved! In rain, in wind, in snow, he was always there! Birds shat on his head, bees stung him- but he didn't budge. At the end of ninety nights he had become all dry, all white. Tears streamed from his eyes. He couldn't hold them back. He didn't even have the strength to sleep. And all that time, the princess watched him. At long last, it was the 99th night... and the soldier stood up, took his chair and left." "What happened at the end?" "That *is* the end. And don't ask what it means. I don't know."

This movie was our midterm Ms. alfon asked us why the soldier leave on the 99th day...Ang simple ng sagot ko coz napagod xa...but mas simple pa pala ung ans...Because the soldier don't need to wait for 100th day if mahal tlga xa nung gurl....and guess wat anu ang narealized ko....?Ang ouch db?! But that's life....Use ur head...

PaNu Ko HaHaTiiN aNg SaRiLi Ko...

2005-10-19T23:51:00.000+08:00

Hay... Super kakapagod na hagard na tlga ako... since monday pa...nung monday the whole day nasa 168 ako to by costume den yesterday rehearse rehearse den knina d me nakapask sa pdesin...9 am n me ngcng sa sobrang pagod...I went to skul mga 10 na den ngrun na... I'm the tita in the first show knina so me ngopen...well They said na ok naman ung performance ko...hay la kmi audience tom daw manunuod cla mama...den knina super hagard ayaw kmi inexcuse ni manolet...den un evening show na mdyo ok lng pero super dming mali pati ung energy bgsk...well thnks drich for watching hahah...Den tom tecdra...after dat rehearsal for introer hay....pagod na ko...sobra...well atleast im happy nmn coz kht ppno i dont feel useless...But the problem is na sasacrifice ko ung social life ko, ung studies ko, family i spend almost 3 hrs lng den tutulog na ko...and 2 days ko na d nkkausap c joseph d din me makarep sa mga txt nia hay watta life...i hope they understand my situation...I need to prove something and this is for them nmn db?well D2 na nakatira cla achi sana oh in fairness extended family na kmi hahah....I'm happy na and2 cla atleast may ngbbnty sa parents ko...and kaht papano na lelessen ung pagkamiss nmn ky ache...Well pnta na c jo sa aug 26 sa hongkong hope to b with him ng madalas lalo na vacation nia....well I hope na maging successful lht...and hope to have more tym sa sarili ko, family and kay God...Well I'm happy nmn na kht papano nggwa ko ung kalahati ng dreams ko...

PaTiEnCe iS a ViRtUe...

2005-10-16T14:18:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a long day for me...Rehearsal the hul day...dumating me dun ng 1pm pero la pa sir george so i went to tropical andun cla jio,dale,joriz,jed den un da hul day ko cla ksama...I'm nervous coz wed na ung show la pa me costume...I'm worried sa voice ko...well un den after dat cnundo ako ng brkada and we went to greenbelt eventhough 5 lng kmi w/c is me, lek, jo, aldrich and ron ngenjoy nmn kmi...den i bought something for jo hahah ang cute ngustuhan nmn nia kya i'm happy na...i just want to cheer him up...den i went home mga 12 na tok to lek sa fone...thanks lek for always being there...den knina mga 9 dumating si kat sundo me for church...den sa church well it's nice to be back hahah weird coz tpic is about love...sbi love is patient, kind love is not jelous ek ek...i learned something nmn sa discussion that I should be patient and mag love parin inspite na ng take advantage lng ung tao sau and dat's the true meaning of love... Den un uwe na me comp gawa assign...l8r watch concert ni aya raven with them uli haha.. sana sama si mama

I just want to thank my brkada for everything....watch our play ahhhh!

mY nO oRdiNaRy LoVe

2005-10-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

No Ordinary Love

This could have been just another day
But instead we're standing here
No need for words, it's all been said
In the way you hold me near
I was alone on this journey
You came along to comfort me
Everything I want in life is right here
‘Cause
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
I was not prepared enough
To fall so deep in love
This is not your ordinary
No ordinary love
You were the first to touch my heart
Made everything’s right again
With your extraordinary love, no, no, no

I get so weak
When you look at me
I get lost inside your eyes
Sometimes some magic is hard to believe
But you're here before my very eyes
You brought joy to my world
Set me so free
I want you to understand
You are every breath that I breathe

From the very first time that we kissed
I knew that I just couldn't let you go at all
From this day on, remember this:
That you're the only one that I adore
Can't we make this last forever
This can't be a dream
'Cause it feels so good to me

-I really like the lyrics of this song...Thanks bro jio...la lng kc last sun nung ngshoot kmi for our next production...pinkining ni jio sakin tong song...Well super ok nung lyric...bagay skin hahah!...Coz this is similar sa nafefeel ko saking...special someone...super lav ko xa but ooooops....dapt mas lav ko sarili ko....I should take good care of myself...ayt lek hahaha

Ang puso dapt d iniiwan kung kniknino!panu pag tinapakan panu ka na!!!panu pagkinain ng aso Panu ka na!!!-Famous line sa dahil sa init ei guys watch our new production oct 19, 20, 21, 26, 27, 28
dls-csb theater

As I HeAr...

2005-10-13T17:33:00.000+08:00

I'm currently in my room listening sa mga fav kong gospel songs...I've realize na parang iba na ko...Don't know wat's happening to me...I frequently go to uecp na...I usually go to Hp chapel...with my mom I go there for the sake na mgchurch ako ng sunday but where's my heart it's all empty!...I miss my old self The Shirley who always ask God everytime may ggwin who is devoted and binibgyn ng importance ang pag seserve but now...hmmm Like now ngtxt si hao he's asking me if pnta me student center pero mas pinili kong comp Don't know if I was influence by the people around me i told myself kc na I will try to go with the flow sa mga tao den show them na it's good na nasa lyk ko c God but parang la cla pa ung ngddala sakin weird...Grrr!I hate myself...Now na nkikinig me sa music... this were the music na kinnta nung ist camp ko the time when I promise to be a good God's daughter...This were the song na ngpaiyak sakin ng sobra den ito din ang ngparealize sakin na iba na ko ngaun....Last nyt after ko kauspn c jo I felt something that is bothering me...I just felt na parang iba na ko...esp wen mama said na parang ang weak ko na...lagi ko na pinaiiral ang feelings ko...unlyk dti na lgi akong mnhid...usually matalino ako noon i always know what will i do...But now empty lahat...i just go with the flow and I'm afraid sa mga mngyyre but still go parin ako...Ex...sa studies ko kpg pinglitan ako ngaun ng prof sooper dinadmdm ko...unlyk dati na paki ko ba! den now gusto nng lumipt ng ceu suko na ko...Well i know na d me mabilis sumuko but wat's happening to me kht sa next prod ng df...Minsan lumbas sa bibig ko na sana extra nalng me grr...Gusto ko na bumalik sa dti....I just feel na I need to be prepared sa lht ng bgy...Bring back my old self...Don't love too much... c God lng ang dapat kong mhalin ng ganun...Mind over heart dapat...Well Change topic...Knina ngfriendster ako...den I saw alexis's blog i was touched because I don't know na ganun pla nia ko kaluv haha well I love her naman sobra....lahat nmn cla...thanks lek! Yesterday dpt magblog me...iba tlga feeling ko yesterday pero nfrgt ko na ung mga dpt na illgy ko...all i know is that i'm so tired na sa course ko...Lord help me na makaalis na d2...help me to come back....I try my best na unahin ka sa lht ng bgy....Lubog kc ako sa feelings ko ryt now hay....