aGaiN...

In my previous entry...it seem that there's no solution...but God is really good he always give me something that can prove that he really exist ...tuesday morning Joseph texted me at first I dont know if i will read his messge i'm expecting that he will tell me na he doesnt really love me...but when i read it he told me that he's sorry for what happened that he loves me...of course d me naniwala...I'm starting to accept everything but it was really hard the whole day was total hell for me...everything happened every emotion that i felt really prove one thing Joseph really own my heart...Tuesday night...while I'm talking to rey on the phone while I'm on may emote mode hehhe...bglang nasa harap ko c joseph...I was surprised dont know what to do den un we talk At first...ayaw ko na tlga coz I'm afraid to be hurt again ayw ko mcra...but If u really love someone U're willing to give him another chance kht ppno he prove me nmn na he loves me...I hope na tuloy tuloy because pag maulit toh....D na tlga...Maybe i should give myself a chance to b happy and take the risk...well un lng...hmmm ystrday magksama kmi 4 c jo, me, sir v and hao...I really miss sir v...pnta kmi rp and music 21 kakatuwa..12 na me umuwi den aga me gcng knina ngcram hehe kc d pa tpos introer ko...pero nakaya ko nmn lahat inspired heheh..now d2 lng me sa haus gawa intfilm...un lng gotta go...

Sooo DoWn...

lyf isn't good at all for me...I cant accept everything that is happening ryt now...u know dat filing na every second my kumikirot sa hart mo...Wala ka sa matinong pag-iisip naccra lahat. this is the first tym naramdman ko un...Yesterday...minura kmi ni Mrs. alfon...dont know wat to do paginitan na nga me ni fajardo pati pa xa...den nasabon din ako ni sir george...ayko maapektuhan but wat's happening to me...if alam lng ni jo ang gngwa nia...I love him so much...I can't accept the fact na nagawa nia un sakin...la na nga c cabz e pati p b xa...ngccc ako sa lht ng katangahan ko...Gulong gulo ako...parang sabay sabay bumagsak lht skin... Parang ang hirap paniwalaan laht ng bagy...Ngaun lang ako ngmahal ng gnto I swallowed everything Nagrisk ako for the 2nd tym believing na tama ung taong minhl ko dhil kilala ko na xa pero mali parin... eventhough noon i always told myself that he loves me pinaniniwala ko ung sarili ko coz i know that d nia ko kyang sktan but then kaht anung gwin ko everytym na nahuhurt ako ang daming proof na d nia ko mahal...I always think that I'm a prncess na fragile para sa mga taong mhal ko na d nila ako kayang sktan lagi akong ngeexpect ng ganun..that's why super skt skin lahat ng un...The 7 years of friendship and everything was all cra na... I dont know what God want me to do... I dont know.... noon I told myself na kht anung mngyare d kmi maccra lalo na ung friendship but then kapag super skit ng nararamdman m kht ayaw m magkakaroon parin un ng lamat... I feel so down I feel na ang stupid ko na cnabi ko un sknya...I beg for his love! I hate myself.... Hinding hindi ko na ggwin un kaht kailan...BIggest mistake: Don't ever fall in love with your bestfriend... It isn't an assurance na d ka nia ssktan...in fact babasagin ka pa nia....Kahit matagal na kaung mgkakilala dont think na d nia kayang magsinungaling sau.... kaya niang lahat un lalo na kapag alm nia mahal na mahal m xa...at pingaaralan kalng niang mahalin....Stop na nga ayaw ko na bye!

sTuPiD PrOfeSsOr

it's tecdra day... Bad day...I woke up early today...super effort ako...bigat pa ng mga materials...ok lng sna e bt magkarun ka ba naman ng kala m kung cnu na prof...super award ako knina...Of course i know that i'm not good at drawing esp...sa mga plates using those materials...But i'm willing to learn...that's not my world pero i'm trying to fit in...imbis na turuan nia ko anu anu cnsabi nia argghhh! i really felt bad...don't know if nachachallenge ako...bt gustotlga xa labanan...pero patience nlng majors e...dont know hanggng kailn ko ttgl sa course na to...It's really hard...I really feel alone..my collge friends just laugh at me... I can't blame them i dont expect anything nmn from them e...I know that they are just my temporary friends....I'm sorry to say this but that's how i feel about it...College life is good pero ang hirap tlga para I just want to b with my true friends tlga...I'm here in Inook alone...Waiting for shobe i need someone ryt know mgdrive me maya...i hope to see jo l8r i miss him we both have prob in studies i hope na mging ok n lht...It's lek's birthday i'm excited na sa debut nia
Well...la me rehearsal today uwe me aga....I hope and2 c ache para mahelp nia ko...Hirap ng mga drwings dont know if kaya ko pa...I miss achi...If and2 xa i know namggng easy sakin to...well...i know that I really need so much effort..I promise na d ako ssko...the more na dina down nila ako the more ko papakita na kaya ko....Go girl!

ThE sO-CaLLeD "InFeCtIon"...

i went to dra. habawel dis afternoon b4 ako mgdriving lesson...she told me na malala na ung skit ko...i got a viral disease ek..ek... hay wawa nmn me..well yesterday was the gawad sinag tala...df won the best artist grup wow...hehe...medyo ang daming may prob sa mga friends ko dont know kung nu advice ko maybe i'm so happy kaya mdyo d ko maabsorb ang mga loneliness nila...hisart and pdesin ag subjct ko yesterday im enjoying every part of it...I pwamis na magpractice me para gmling me mgdrawing...den knina i woke up 1pm hahah la kc kmi prof sa tecdra that's why dami assign...kya un...punta dra. den drive den now kakabyad ko lng ng tuition 30% lng subsidy ko daya...well k lng atleast meron den now nasa inook ako...la magawa i'm waiting for jay and jed...may ssbhin dw cla...well i really miss my joseph can't wait to see him...den maya rehearsal la parin me voice God bless nlng sakin un lng period bushba...

dRiVe...dRiVe

ngstart na me magdriving lesson yesterday hehehe...yap nakakanervous xa...i really need concentration un daw kc ung kulang...ang cute nga coz ung instructor ko xa din instructor ni joseph ang ni ache gina cute db...den yesterday b4 me mgdriving lesson nghp kmi ni aya tatang...hanap me gift para kay lek...den kain kmi kfc hay d parin ako magaling...ang boses ko grabe i feel na anytime pwede akong maging deaf...den nung afternoon ngkita kmi ni jo...stroll lng sa loob ng chungwa hay super namiss ko chung hua..den cnamhan ko xa bumili ng paso...pnta din kmi store aya ben...den nung 6pm blik na me csb...audition for the major production ok na ung nakuha kong role pero la lng i really felt bad kc lam mo un la akong voice parang d ko man lng napgtanggol ung srili ko...pero ung nakuha kong role maganda xa kaya medyo ok lng skin...hay watta lyf...dont know kung anung uunhin ko...i got lots of assignments pero d ko lm panu ggwin ang hirap ng major...hay d din me naka audition sa koko krunch hay sana bumalik na voice ko hassle na e...well yesterday for me super haba ng day na un...but wats important is happy ako coz nakasama ko c joseph esp. i got alot of blessings...i want to sleep pa pero hirap sleep kapag masakit throat mo...well got to go...frehan subject ko buti 230pm pa class ko...i cancelled my driving lesson hahaha!

GoD's bLeSSiNg!

26 pa nung last me nablog well ilang days akong may sakit...huhu up to now...well nung aug30 i made a surprise for joseph...den as usual sama sama parin ang brkda den...ngend na din ang sem break super hirap na laht majors na...ang tapang pa ng mga prof! then ilang days din me ngpraktis for df's rmc role ko is ces...den nung friday ung show super bc nga e hassle coz paos ako den ang dami ko pang lines effort na effort ako grabe...den nanuod ang barkda ng play...super saya nung day na un esp andun c boyfriend..infairness may improvement na xa kaya happy na ko...den nag rp kmi...den kinabukasan sinundo me ni boyfren punta kmi pricemart cnamahan ko xa mamili ng wheels...den after dat namili kmi ni papa sa hp ng mga art matrials grabe noh! den today ksama ko cla ron mag church...well c roan bagong member na ng brkda....i miss joseph d ko xa kita the hul day huhuh!!!well tom na start ng driving lesson ko im so excited hehehe...den baka tom din audition ng koko krunch and df's new production....dont know wat to do la parin me voice...well but im happy naman....