Grown up on the Inside...

uR mY fRieNd bUt GoD iS mY BeSt fRiEnD... I cAn cRy tO yOu bUt GoD cAn dRy mY tEaRs... YoU loVe mE bUt GoD loVeS mE deEpeR... YoU cAn hoLd mY hAnDs bUt GoD cAn cArRy mE bEtTeR...

11.30.2006

THANKS

I just want to say thank you sa mga taong nag-alala sakin nung naospital ako...i appreciate ur care...Don't worry I'm starting to be ok..

Hehheeheh....bka nga mamaya back to work na ako....

well....bagyo bagyo na naman sana ala brown out...

Miss ko na benilde ilang arw din me absent i miss my loka loka frends hahha...


God bless!

hahha exciting mag shoot kmi ng horror film namin sa parang haunted house ng lola ni tinay hahah 3 days and 3 nights kmi dun coool!hehhehehehhe

FROM LIKILAM...touching msg

there are times that we need to be hurt to be able to learn...
but what if these hurts causes so much pain that it made you stop loving & believing
maybe, it's just an obstacle you need to overcome
or maybe it is something that is there for you to realize not to fight?
you met someone and fell inlove
you realized how happy you are
when he's there besides you
you just want to spent the whole day with him
nothing enters your mind when you talk
he's your prince, your night...time passed slowly
and you... the smile are still there
but suddenly....you felt sad...he is there but you cannot feel his presencewhat will you do???
he keeps on telling you that he will never leave you
but why is it that you suddenly felt that you are all alone by yourself?
where is he?somewhere out there
maybe with someone
or maybe just waiting for you to realize all the acts you just committed
the acts that made him walked a little away from you
but you will never really know...especially because he never wanna talk about it
and how will you now?maybe, you just need to understand...not everything will turn out..and all you have to do is choose
choose between
letting go or holding on..if you will let go...be strong
never cry never pity yourself go on with your life
there are still alot of things that you can explore
learn moreappreciate everything
and enjoy for sure, someone will come your way
and will love you the way
you want to be loved..but if you will hold on
just hold on everything will go smooth eventually you just need to bear all the hurts and take all the risks....even if it will cause so much pain
at least you give all you can in the name of love
thats how love goes...to let go, and wait for someone new while enjoying life
orto hold on, understand, and be strong
face all the hurtings and the risks...and later on
if you loss everything...at least you did not loss the battle easily
you fight it is wat matter most..whether you fight or not... in the name of love..

11.18.2006

TONIGHT I CAN WRITE THE SADDEST LINES
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
Write, for instance: "The night is full of stars,
and the stars, blue, shiver in the distance."
The night wind whirls in the sky and sings.
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
On nights like this, I held her in my arms.
I kissed her so many times under the infinite sky.
She loved me, sometimes I loved her.
How could I not have loved her large, still eyes?
I can write the saddest poem of all tonight.
To think I don't have her. To feel that I've lost her.
To hear the immense night, more immense without her.
And the poem falls to the soul as dew to grass.
What does it matter that my love couldn't keep her.
The night is full of stars and she is not with me.
That's all. Far away, someone sings. Far away.
My soul is lost without her.
As if to bring her near, my eyes search for her.
My heart searches for her and she is not with me.
The same night that whitens the same trees.
We, we who were, we are the same no longer.
I no longer love her, true, but how much I loved her.
My voice searched the wind to touch her ear.
Someone else's. She will be someone else's. As she once
belonged to my kisses.
Her voice, her light body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, true, but perhaps I love her.
Love is so short and Forgetting is so long.
Because on nights like this I held her in my arms,
my soul is lost without her.
Although this may be the last pain she causes me,
and this may be the last poem I write for her.
--
Pablo Neruda
I read this poem during my worlite class last monday...a very sad poem that really touches my heart and as i observed the whole class...I just smiled and realized that I'm not the only one who can relate to this poem....
How powerful love is it can create the happiest part of your life and at the same time destroy it... It can change a person in a instant...
I hope that God will allow us to invent a anti-love drug....hahah...After we read this poem our professor asked us to explain our favorite verse in the poem...
"Love is so short and Forgetting is so long"
"Although this may be the last pain she causes me,and this may be the last poem I write for her."
these were my answers...
ala lng i dont know but this two verse remind me of him...
I think my heart had given up...Subconcious ata un hahaha....i know that my mind doesn't want me to give up ang dami kc memories na nakastore dun...pero napagod din ung heart ko and I thank God that he allowed me to tire my heart... that i will be the one to end my sufferings...he let me to find my own comfort zone...he allowed me to believe in myself na wala akong d kakayanin bsta andyan xa...he showed me that I'm shirley b4 dumating xa and ngaun wala na xa...I'm still shirley....I'm happy coz kaya ko naman pla mawala cla eh...
hush! ang dming ek ek...hahah...well...wat an inspiring life hahahha joke!
Ei guys i posted this kc super ok tlga xa...kakatuwa
Stay happy and Stay inlove!

11.06.2006

THE ART OF LETTING GO
Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?
Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning, Learning the art of letting go.
Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door
Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning, Learning the art of letting go
Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through the pain of one more day Without you
Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning, Learning the art of letting go.
ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

11.02.2006

My Long Lost Friend...


LIKILAM. I never tot that mggng frend kmi nitong nilalang na to...Of course he's one of the "bad guy Reputation" during our high school days....kakatuwa coz I've realized that iba tlga ang nggwa ng tym...Tym= change....

He's a very nice person naks burado naba ang bad guy impression....hehhe pero i swear he's a very cool guy....

Cge na nga i know ppbasa ko saknya toh....kaya itoh na hahah...

Maliban sa pgiging good looking guy niya....he has a very good hart for a friend like me...that's why i really appreciate his advices and everything....

well see i lost my so- called "Friends" but God gave me kapalit o db so nice....

well un lng....Just want to repay all the kindness na inoffer ng mga ugok na to hahahha.....


God bless gotta go....

pls. pray for my niece arianne ooperate xa tom....

thnx...



tribute ko sa mga Sosyal na PG


I owe All the kalokohan, katakawan, kagaguhan and Especially KASiYAHAN during my college life to these two nilalang...
I never tot that may mgiging super close ako sa mga frends ko sa college coz i was so attached to my hs brkda...but as time goes by esp now na ang dami nng work na pang professional ows.......i really need some1 na andyan plgi....at d nangiiwan sa ere...
I admit that naging attched lang me sknila when I was going through the hardest part of my life...
Sometimes they dont listen to my drama mode pero they really make sure na mageenjoy me sa mga gingwa ko....appreciate ko lht un....
"Being TRue" yan ang meron sa aming 3...we accpt each other's flaws...proven yan noh!hahah Db?
Wel...I'm very glad that...Kht papano I have them...it's hard to have a friend in collge....but i was so blessed pasawy nga cla pero mahal ko....


Tribute ko yan sa inyo....libre nio ko sisig tom ah!Love yah