mY pRoMisE...

Joseph and I are sick....my sinus xa while my sore throat ako...

nasa haus nila ako for two days...I really want to checked if he's ok...

Know wat...Ngaun lng ako nafeel na super concerned ako sa isang tao...maybe that's what true love really means...

Yesterday usap lng kmi sa roof top nila...As We looked sa view...I started to tell him my dreams...and everything that I want to tell him...
Feeling ko nga d ako c Shirley hahaha!

It's our 8th month and I still love him and super na nag grow pa...

We all know that Joseph grew up na walang parents....I really admired his strenght and independence...Kaya nga I promised myself that I'll love him hangang sa kaya ko...I'll try to give the love na kulang nia...of course I know that no one can fill that naman pero....I'm willing....that's how much I love him

mY sUndaY...God's Day

Sunday...it's Sabbath day...As usual mdyo late na naman ako hahah...It's nice to see people like joana chi...hahah everytym i see them...super nareminisce ko tlga ung high school life ko whaahah...Super gnda nung msg nung sunday it's about spiritual man, normal man and carnal man...hahahe i evaluate myself kasali ako sa carnal man...hahah carnal man are those people na d nagrow as a christian ng mabilis coz walang determination...well I will try to change naman...hahah! Soo happy coz after our service cnundo c leslie ng mama nia den sumaby na ako...dun ako ng lunch saknila...i'm starting na gumaang na ang loob sknila...Amah is starting to recognize me...Well it's big deal for me...when I was a child I had many bad experiences of being rejected by her and now...I'm trying to forget it na...I want to...start a new relationship with her...Well after dat nanuod kmi ni Leslie ng cne...Achie and shobe bonding hahah...lamon to d max...hahah we watched "Pamahiin" hahah horror movies fanatic tlga kc ako...ewan ko exciting kc db I'm fond of horror house din mahilig tlga ako sa thrill weird but it's true hahah buti nlng e pareho kmi ni leslie na ganun...maganda ung movie ang freaky...pasdo na sa taste ng future Production designer hahah...but aminado ako na Filipino movies need polishing parin especially sa mga effects...d parin kc nalalayo sa shake rattle and roll na effects e...pero story wise naman maganda coz it's a kind of movie na magulo but d ka mamakatyo hnngng d m matpos cz mapapaisip ka tlga kung anu tlga meron sa story...astig...but one thing I dislike about the movie ang weird din coz never tnawag ung name ni God hahah...syempre kung nandun k sa situation cnu dapat mong twagin ayt? Dennis Trillo is really a good actor...c Iya naman...mag vj nlng xa..hahah mean joke lng...well kulng kc ung emotion e... Before we watched "pamahiin" yesterday...pinalabas ung trailer ng "Da vinci code" well it really make me sad...I really wonder bat ganun ung mga tao...but what can we do...Satan is working...he is sooo trying hard to destroy Jesus Christ...but...as a Christian I experienced God's love and Nobody can't take that away from me....why read...The gospel of Judas? before reading that people must first read Matthew, mark, luke and John...sbi nga sa church why read the gospel of Judas...if its true why Judas hang himself hahah people who read that baka hang din nila ung sarili nila...besides that Gospel is not accurate in history wise...bsta...I really pray that makonsensya ung mga taong ganun they dont know what they miss...they will regret that...they dont know how happy I am...na naniniwala ako Kay Jesus... all I can say is if hinde totoo si Jesus then I believe na totoo xa walang mawawala skin but those people who doesn't believe na 220 xa and if totoo xa...Lagot kau...I really feel bad...because they are destroying my God....they don't know that he's my life...
Though I can't see Your holy face
And Your throne in heaven above
It seems so far away
Though I cant touch your nail scarred hands
I have a deep and unspeakable joy
That makes my faith to standLord, I believe in You
I'll always believe in You
Though I cant see you with my eyes
Deep in my heart Your presence
I find Lord, I believe in You
And I'll keep my trust in You
LET THE WHOLE WORLD SAY WHAT THEY MAY
NO ONE CAN TAKE THIS JOY LORD, I BELIEVE
Born from above
You are Gods only chosen one
Youre the one and only true way
To the Fathers heart You died for all sin
Then you rose and now live again
Conquering death and the grave
So that I might live...

oUr SaTuRdAy ReUniOn

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Last saturday when I felt sooo down...bgla akong niyaya ni Kat mag harrison den bglang may tumwag si jason he told me nasa bahay ko dw cla (JAYSON, JONARD and EARVIN) they are my kabarkadas during 4th year high school...they are also the people who help to grow as a Christian cla kc ung mga kasama ko nung bgo plng akong mging christian I really value our frendship because I know that our foundation is God......I remember those days...na lagi kming nasa Bible study...in our second home "Student Center"...tpos every saturday nagpupunta kmi ng Gideon para magbasketball...ang saya nung mga tyms na un...cla ung mga frends kong tipong gago gago pero mas matino pa sa mga matitino hahahah....Ang cool nga coz Eventhough minsan nlng kming magkita kita...Lagi parin cla andyaan kpag malungkot ako ung tipong dadating cla kung kelan down na down ako eventhough d ko cnsbi...That's why God is sooo God...He really show me his love for me...kaya ok na ako...after dat dumating c justine ko...hay...after a long time ngaun lng ako uli tumawa ng sobra sobra hahah because of sai...hahaha super clown tlga xa...Den another problem comes...Naglasing na naman papa ko den umalis xa bgla nawala...Thank God that andyan c justine cnamhan nia kmi maghanap kay Papa...Justine is lyk my little bro na rin...c mama nga anak na tlga trato saknya...xa ang takbuhan ko kpg lumalayas ako actually xa tlga ang nagpakilala kay GOd skin...now na college na xa...I'm not worried coz I know na xa parin ung justine na super love ko...well...that's how my saturday ends...

Am I sTiLL HaPPy?

I just want to...let all my feelings to come out...I don't know kung anung filing ko ngaun it's just that...I feel incomplete and unimportant...Sometimes iniisip ko...if I chose the right person...I always wish that one day magcing ako and my heart will stop beating for him...like i did before I miss those times na...magbestfriend lng kmi no more no less...but what can I do mahal ko tlga xa...that's why i really hate myself for that...Im trying...to b the right person for him...pero I feel that I'm still not enough mybe idealistic lng ako sbra...but eto tlga ung nrrmdaman ko...I'm starting to give up...one of my friend told me that..."If xa ang howe m matututo ka tlga kung anu tlga ang mining ng relationship" Honestly ang dami ko tlga na learn sknya...He disciplined me and taught me things that I should know para mging hppy and maaus ang life ko and i really thank him for that...pero grrr... i don't know confuse tlga ako...but one thing I'm sure kaya ako nagkakaganito it's because...

I know that he's my everything...

and

I really hate myself for that....

and

I want to be free...to love myself again...

I'm iNLovE wiTh MySeLf

wow...ang dami kong kwento...of course #1 na ung camp...I have many things na dapat ipag thank you kay God 1st, I got 2.0 sa tecdra...well I really prayed for it and d nagdamot c God binigay nia un sakin...well that same day nakasama ko c joseph sa hp...kanta knta kming dlwa...quality tym...pero mas mgling akong singer sknya wahahah!

then nung gabi nun...pnta na me camp...super nagenjoy ako sa camp unlike ung sa mga previous years i tried to reach out make new frends...masaya coz Naksama ko c David( he's my nephew sa Davao bata pa ako nung naksama ko xa and sooo happy that ngkita kmi uli) Soo glad na nging close kmi agad...were both adik sa jokes and soooper sarap namin tumawa...Masaya rin coz...Ksama ko plgi c Leslie, Aldrich, Emman, Justine and Haoson...unlike last year na konti lngung close ko na sumama...super bonding tlga...den counselor ko rin c ache precious...well 2nd tym ko na xa counselor...she's really an angel in disguise tlga...Sooper dmi kong natutunan sa camp...I realized ung mga mali ko...And I want to change and grow maturely sa christian life ko...Soo happy na kabond ko din ung mga cousin ko...after ilang years always akong nakatago sa knila...and now I'm starting to show them na I want to be close to them...Ang sya nung last night sa camp...Especially the praise night nagburst tlga ung heart ko sa happiness and joy na feel ko for God...Den nung sat uwe na...Pinuntahan ako ni Jo and Kat after that...Bonding with leslie and david before xa blik sa davao...

Sunday...Easter...nagchurch ako...tpos napasali ako sa kid's camp...soo happy na atlast may chance na ako makapag serve sa Church...den pnta ako knila aldrich...den uwe na and family day...see how God work...2 consecutive week na akong may Family day...!knowing my family pa...wala na c jo nag shanghai na xa....nakakmiss nga eh...
Monday...stay lng sa haus tinamad akong umatend ng df i'm planning to leave df muna
Tuesday...Tambay with kat sa bahay den went to Center for pop hahah I'm Back...I really want to sing...I hope na may mangyre pa hahahah....

Now...Kakauwe lng nila rey and kat...parepareho kaming may namimisss hahah
Tomorrw ist day na ng cpmp ko sooo excited
"I'm Inlove with myself" heheh la lng kc this past few days super exercise ako...hanap pagkakakitaan, enroll kung saan saan trying to improve evrything..I'm reading inspirational books...and I'm happy...I'm really happy...God bless with me ng sobra sobra tha's why I can't ask for more....

I really miss lek and Joseph...I can't wait na mabuo tau uli at lakwatsa to d max...
Well for those people na nalulungkot you know who you are just pray...God knows all ur sufferings and d ka nia pababayaan...Tested na xa db?!

Kaya Guys...If u want to buy delsey bags...contact nio lng me...09193956423 above ung picture...bili nmn kau...thanks!

Those pipol na gusto mag bible study....atend kau every friday 8pm sa UECPasay park ave bsta txt nio nlng me ty and God bless!

I wiLL miss mY LekLek...

Umalis na c lek...papuntang states well eventhough 1 month lang xa dun i will still miss her...Kc naman for 8 years kming mag bestfriend e d kmi nghihiwalay...well maybe when were still in high school we dont value each oder that much...we have our own group...we envied each other and sometime we backbited each other...most of the time we fight...but! thing I have realized...marami akong nging frend sa high school: I have monica, Aura, Joanna and etc...But still lek is the only one who stayed...Maybe super pareho kc kmi ng ugali...sometimes we hate each other but again we will still find each other again...
I thank God na may isa akong alexis...The one who always give me tissue...The one na buntungan ko ng galit...the one na lagi kong hinahatak sa lakwatsa...

sometime I feel na iisa nlng kmi...usually...Halos pareho kmi ng damit but then d naman namin napapagusapan...ang weird! Super mamimiss ko c lek...biruin m b nmn cmula ng ngcollge ako...xa na ang kasam ko since elemntary to college kmi mgksam...san kapa...eventhough I have my frends sa college mas gusto ko pa din xa kasama I feel comfortable i feel na may taong nagmamahal sakin kpg ksama ko xa... Halos every weekend kasama ko xa...ngaun pa xa mwawala kung kailn summer...

well...That's lyf....all i know is that...masaya ako na may lek at kat kat ako...may barkda akong laging andyan para sakin...I'm proud that I have a unique brkda...na sobra d mabilis mahanap...I found one the best gift...kya treasured un sa heart ko...
Well tomorrow alis na ako papuntang camp

Guys pls pray for my grade esp...tecdra...HUHUHU!

I'm VERY VERY VERY tired...

Hell week sobra...I'm sooo tired of art walang katapusang Floor plan, Painting, Macquette...I really want to end this term...I'm really bothered sa mga exams coz d na nga ako sanay na may exams..asar si hisart dagdag pa....Lost na ako...sa dami ng aaralin...I'm planning to stop df na...d na me attend ng mga workshops la lng nawalan na ako ng gana...Ngaun nilalagnat na ako sa sobrang pagod...Can't wait na mg saturday na...Tagaytay kmi...la lng i hope mag-enjoy ako unlike last time...well...lapit narin camp...I want to rest na babush na next tym nlng ulit...